[brephi]

It's been awhile since I actually posted at PC. That's because I thought if I discontinued discussing my depressive situation, taking antidepressants and making my weekly therapy sessions that my problems would go away. I say that also because I finally received my social security settlement and believed that the financials would wipe out the other aspects of depression. Well, that didn't happen. What has actually happened is that the financial aspect is bringing some relief, but it hasn't made depression completely disappear. The other aspects of depression have not gone away, they just relaxed just a bit to try and make me believe that everything was going to be OKAY. Was I a fool. Everything is not OKAY.

Another reason I discontinued seeing my therapist is because my husband gave me "hell" each and ever time I came home. He wanted to know how everything went. I really believed he felt threatened by my going to therapy because he knew I was discussing issues I was having with him and his "funky" attitude. He is the kind of person who believes a person should not be depressed if they have faith in GOD and a roof over their head. He also believes I should not have to go to therapy because I should be able to discuss my problems with him. Initially I tried discussing my situation with him, but that didn't work. He is from the "old school" and feels that everything I am going through I brought on myself. He also feels that I don't need antidepressants, that I am weak and don't have faith in GOD. I disagree with him and will continue to do so.

I did speak with my Therapist and told her that I would go back to seeing FNP for counseling and medications because for some stupid reason my husband didn't feel threatened by the FNP.

I am trying to work things out with him, but I am seeing divorce on the horizon.

Make's a person wonder who really needs therapy--me or him.

I am just rattling off and don't really expect a response or opinion. If I get one that would be great.

[sky dancer]

Both you and your spouse need help. My partner and I are not seeing a therapist together, in addition to my individual work with a therapist.

We've been together a long time and love each other dearly, but clearly my partner does not understand PTSD or the long term effects of severe child abuse--nor internet addiction--nor my interest in forums.

I wish I could get more help from and for my partner. She doesn't think forums like this are all that helpful.

They are primarily aimed at people who are directly experiencing mental illness NOT so much the family of those affected.

If anyone has a resource for my partner please let me know. She prefers blogs over forums.

It wouldn't surprise me if your husband isn't also suffering from MI in addition to just being with you as you work through yours.

Let me know how it goes for you.

sky dancer

[justfloating]

((((((((brephi))))))))

Sorry your husband doesn't understand what you're going through. It's difficult when those closest to us don't understand. I'm glad that you're going to remain on antidepressants and continue to see your therapist despite what he thinks. It's important that YOU remember you're legitimately ill, no matter what anyone who isn't a professional says about it. Good luck.