[justfloating]

Why is it worse at night? Why is it ALWAYS worse at night? Is there some actual, biological reason why I can be having a normal, even good day, and then, like clockwork, I feel miserable every evening and go to bed fighting off the urge to cry? Then, when I wake up, I'm generally okay again. Is there a reason for this or am I just messed up and doomed to deal with depression as soon as the sun goes down. I feel like I'm two different people most of the time.

It's exhausting and I want to know why this is and what I can do to make it stop. I'm relaxed, I'm sleeping enough, I'm eating well, I'm getting exercise and sunlight and taking my meds and doing everything I'm supposed to, but EVERY NIGHT none of that seems to make a difference at all.

[idontknow13]

((((justfloating))))
Weird, for me it is the opposite, I wake up in a panic and have at least 5 to 6 hours of deep anxiety and depression and as the day wears on I feel better, at night is when I start to believe that tomorrow will be better but when the next day comes, here I go again...
I hope you start having better evenings and nights, you sure deserve it.
Take good care of yourself and I will try to send you some of the positive vibes I feel at night to help you out.

[NuckingFutz]

there may be a reason...i would check with pdoc on this.

[Sabrina]

I can't give you any insight but I remember going through the exact same thing. Just wanted to let you know that I understand your frustration!

[Rohag]

Once upon a time in my past, I lived in a northern location where people jokingly spoke of "darkness poisoning" (or other words to that effect) during the winter months. The medical folks related to this as a real phenomenon, but I don't know what they called it. The season of long winter nights would always see a spike in cases of depression and worse.

Some people use "light boxes" or lamps that give off light in wavelengths mimicking natural sunlight to help manage their depression or circadian problems.

I'm not saying that's your problem, but I'm almost positive there are demonstrated neuropsychological connections between sunlight and brain chemistry, which you could research. So, when you ask, "Is there some actual, biological reason why I can be having a normal, even good day, and then, like clockwork, I feel miserable every evening and go to bed fighting off the urge to cry?", the answer is probably "Yes".

[Naturefreak]

((justfloating))

I'm the same as (( idontknow13 )) I feel better as the day
goes on . I guess maybe its because I'm glad I made it through
another day and I get to sleep shortly which relieves me of
my depression. Everyone is different
I hope your pdoc can figure something out for you .
Take Care & Good Luck

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((((( justfloating )))))))))))))))))))
nights are often worse for me too and I'm not sure of all the reasons why. Thinking of you

[turquoisesea]

it might have to do something with your natural body rhythm. Everyone does best at certain times of day, and worst at others. Maybe with depression it just hits really hard, maybe that's your low time of the day?

Might be sunlight too, or being tired.

the only thing I can think of to make things better is either avoid being awake at the time when your body rhythm is really low. Or if that's not possible maybe the ideas about special lighting and things may help?

sending hugs