[my-kids-r-my-life]

My husband had an emotional afair with a woman at work a few months ago and i can't seem to get past it...we are in an okay place in our marriage, but the pain is still there and I can't stop thinking about all the lies he told and i don't trust him at all...the big issue is I keep thinking about to the time before i found out and i keep replaying his actions and our conversations and wondering if he was lying to me then or if he was wishing he was with her while he was home with me....he's been great in terms of talking things out with me right from the beginning...but my problem is that he just answers my questions when i ask them so i feel like i constantly have to be asking things even if he swears he's told me everything...i feel being emotionally cheated on is so much worse than someone having say a one night stand with someone...i say this because the fact that he was emotionally connected to this woman is a threat...he wanted her in his life and he wanted to take it to the next level and the fact that he didn't makes me wonder if he is wishing he hadn't gotten caught because it didn't go as far as he liked it to...i feel the fact that she wasn't just some random woman but someone he cared about makes it harder for him to just forget about her just because he got caught and like he says because he knows what he almost lost...i told him the other day that i'm not happy in this marriage and i'm not sure i ever will be again...i put on a happy face for my family and my children but i told him that i'm not happy with him and i'm still deeply hurt by what he did to us

[depressedalaskan]

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