[googley]

I don't expect to be treated special, I just expect to be treated the same. Why is my mental health less important than everyone elses physical health? I feel all alone. I'm moving tomorrow and will not know anyone. Why don't they care? I talk about parity and they have no idea what I'm talking about. I just feel so empty inside. What is the point? I feel so alone. I'm such a wreck. I've spent most of the day in bed. I just feel so awful I can't stand it. Everyone always said that it would get easier. But it never does. Where is the enjoyment part of life?

[depressedalaskan]

Sorry you are feeling down. Hope hugs will help.

[susan888]

(((Googley)))
What we suffer from is every bit as devastating as a purely physical disease...even more so because of the stigma we have to endure. I would not wish this on anyone, but it would be wonderful if we could be treated with the care and concern.

[Rohag]

I'm so sorry you're down today, Googley. On the other hand, maybe your body is storing up energy for tomorrow.

Your observations are all too correct, at least in my experience. You deserve care and kindness. I hope some of the care your friends here bear toward you makes it through the the electronic stuff that separates us to comfort you.

[Pomegranate]

(((((googley))))) I'm sorry you are having such a difficult day. Reminds me of a line from a song: Some days are diamonds, some days are rust.

I learned the hard way to not expect anyone to care or understand about my mental illness. People with certain physical problems & illness get showered with sympathy and understanding. Those of us with mental illness - not so much.

Things don't get better, WE get better at dealing with life. The more we learn to deal with our problems, our mental illness and learn to take care of ourselves the better we get and the better we feel. Change is the only constant. So keep reminding yourself that what is happening now will change. And if you learn and grow from it, you will begin to feel better. Take care of yourself.

[*freak*]

I can't say it'll get easier, but I really hope it will
Hang in there and remember you're not alone here

[googley]

Thank you all.
My university doesn't have any mental health insurance and they are not willing to help me. The fin aid person asked me why I was moving to go to school and why I gave up my job?(except that I'm moving tomorrow and have no other place to live and no job) She was miliseconds away from saying that I just shouldn't come. She only didn't say it because at the same moment I burst into tears. She told me that I had taken too long to look into this (though I didn't find out I got in until the end of May, and have talked to the fin aid office multiple times since then) . People can get their aid raised because they live far away from campus, or because they need money for child care. But I can't get any extra funds for mental health care. Even though it says on their website that funds can be added for unreimbursed medical expenses. They said that I would have to get it declared as a disability to get any help. (instead of them just including it in their health insurance in the first place) I am fine with treatment and meds. I don't have a dissability. If it is treated it is fine. If not, well lets just not go there. I just feel so awful. I am planning on getting a job, but that doesn't help me until I can get one that will fit around my class schedule. And no I can't get a job on campus. I thought I would be fine because I would have school insurance and it would be a group policy, however, it isn't and so I'm not.

[Catherine2]

Originally Posted by googley

I don't expect to be treated special, I just expect to be treated the same. Why is my mental health less important than everyone elses physical health? I feel all alone. I'm moving tomorrow and will not know anyone. Why don't they care? I talk about parity and they have no idea what I'm talking about. I just feel so empty inside. What is the point? I feel so alone. I'm such a wreck. I've spent most of the day in bed. I just feel so awful I can't stand it. Everyone always said that it would get easier. But it never does. Where is the enjoyment part of life?

I hope you feel better now...
Not sure if the law as stated in the link covers you or not...depends on your employment...sorry for not knowing your own situation.

I offer my apology for not seeing the above post before I replied...

http://www.cms.hhs.gov/healthinsrefo...hparityact.asp

In Peace

Originally Posted by googley

I don't expect to be treated special, I just expect to be treated the same. Why is my mental health less important than everyone elses physical health? I feel all alone. I'm moving tomorrow and will not know anyone. Why don't they care? I talk about parity and they have no idea what I'm talking about. I just feel so empty inside. What is the point? I feel so alone. I'm such a wreck. I've spent most of the day in bed. I just feel so awful I can't stand it. Everyone always said that it would get easier. But it never does. Where is the enjoyment part of life?

i feel totaly the same. i expected to be treated equal but thats never happen. i spend most of my days in my room, on bed, watching tv, online, i literally dont have anything better to do these days eventho i want it, i cant reach it. numb & empty. you're right, where is the enjoyment. if we are meant to be like this, then this is unfair.

[idontknow13]

((((((googley)))))

[Berries]

(((((((((((perfectsilence))))))))))))) (((((((((((GOOGLEY)))))))))

I think "normal" people just expect us to "snap out of it" just because we want to. They can so they think we can.
But you wouldn't tell someone with two broken legs to "snap out of it" and just go on ahead and walk.

It is totally unfair.

Hugs to you and all of us!!!

[Fuzzybear]

(((((((((((((((( Googley )))))))))))))))))

[Lost71]

((((googley))))

hugs and love for you,
Julia
xox

[*freak*]

((((Googley)))

((((Perfectsilence))))