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Oct 13, 2009, 08:49 PM
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Lately I am finding it hard to get interested in doing anything. A lot of the things I once found fun now just seem like a waste of time. It is so hard to relax. I can't concentrate on any thing I want to do. If I try to read I find my mind starts wandering and I have to reread sentences multiple times. If I try to play piano I get frustrated for making so many mistakes. If I try to watch TV, I fall asleep. When I try to play online games I start feeling like I am wasting time.
Instead I just sit for hours and stare at the wall and try to think of any activity that I can do that sounds interesting. I waste so many hours trying to figure out how not to waste time. How ironic is that? It scares me because lately I have felt different that I usually do. Usually even when I am having a bad episode of depression I can immerse myself in some activity and find some escape. I might play video games for 12 hours straight which I know isn't healthy but sometimes it seems like it is my only way to be able to forget my problems for awhile. Lately I can find no solace. No sanctuary. These nights are getting longer and longer. |
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Oct 14, 2009, 12:35 AM
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I'm kinda in the same spot you are, crazyratlady. I've lost interest in almost everything. I don't even feel like talking to friends and family these days. I may occasionally call them, just to let them know I'm not pissed off at them, but that's about it. I have my son, which is the only thing that really keeps me going these days. Yet I sometimes repay his attention with harsh words. Makes me feel like a bad dad. Probably because I am.
Sorry, I suppose this isn't helping. At least you know you're not alone. Hang in there. |
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Oct 14, 2009, 02:56 AM
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Rebecca "If you're going through hell -- keep going." - Winston Churchill It's better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live an imitation of somebody else's life with perfection. - Elizabeth Gilbert Bring on the wonder, we got it all wrong, we pushed you down deep in our souls, so hang on. Bring on the wonder, bring on the song, I pushed you down deep in my soul for too long. - Susan Enan http://igetupagain.wordpress.com/ |
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Oct 14, 2009, 03:32 AM
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 sorry dont what to say really. but spending hours playing online or computer games isnt a waste of time. i spend hours doing that to sometimes i jump from one game to another after 5 mins cos i cant concentrate enough. i keep being told that its ok to do that cos its better than just sitting.
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Oct 14, 2009, 05:00 AM
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Oct 14, 2009, 06:11 AM
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I don't know what to say but I at least wanted to send a hug.
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Oct 14, 2009, 06:30 AM
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  all of us beadys
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...can.. .....will..... just.............see come visit my photo albums and see some pictures of mary's beadwork http://forums.psychcentral.com/album.php?albumid=305 Problems are only opportunities with thorns on them." ~ Hugh Miller |
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