[googley]

I feel like I'm going crazy. I feel like my brain is coming out of my ears. It can't deal with any more education. Too much information to process. My anxiety is through the roof. I can't stop my brain from trying to escape. My anxiety is running along my nerves. I just can't stand it. I don't see T until Thursday. My money will barely reach until the end of the year. I think I am going to have to cut back on T to make it reach. I feel so awful. I know I shouldn't think about the holidays yet, but I can't help it. I'm going to be all alone for both Thanksgiving and Christmas. I don't have money to visit anyone and I don't know anyone where I am. I have no friends where I am. Not that I would have time to visit them even if I did. I feel so unconnected from my other friends. I need to respond to a friend's email but it just seems like so much effort. I feel so overwhelmed. I feel so alone. I didn't know that living alone was going to be so lonely. But this is my only option. Now I'm just rambling. I feel so screwed up.

[Naturefreak]

(((Googley)))
So much on your mind and so little relief from all the anxiety,
loneliness , stress . We are listening my friend.
I hope some comforting hugs will help you .

[billieJ]

Dear Googley ~ I am so sorry for everything you are going through. School was hard for me too. They say to let go of your anxiety by ceasing to resist it. Let it run along your nerves if it will until it becomes energy. Invite your brain to escape if it will. Perhaps it needs a bit of time to run free Can you study for a period of time after classes and then let yourself have some time with friends? Give your anxiety 20 seconds to do it's worst, then get on with what you were doing. I'm no professional, but this is the advice I have read on anxiety. Once school is over, you will find work to be a piece of cake! billieJ During the holidays, you will be with a big crowd of those who are alone. Come to PC!

[justfloating]

(((((((googley)))))))

I could have written your post myself. I have very few friends where I am, and quite a lot of anxiety on my plate as far as school is concerned, as well. I know what it's like to spend a holiday alone. I can't go home for Thanksgiving, and on top of that it's not even celebrated where I am, so that I'm left lonely and homesick on that day every year, plus I have to go to classes and carry on with life as usual while my friends and family are at home together, celebrating without me. It's one of the loneliest weekends of the year for me.

I don't really have any advice for you, I just wanted to let you know that I understand how you're feeling, and you're not alone in that. Try to take it easy and be as good to yourself as you can.

[phoenix47baby]

I could have written your post, too. I have all out of the city friends and out of the state, no one local. Living alone can be horribly lonely. I am sorry you are feeling this way now.

[phoenix47baby]

I could have written your post, too. I have all out of the city friends and out of the state, no one local. Living alone can be horribly lonely. I am sorry you are feeling this way now.

[Briester]

Googley, justfloating, & phoenix47baby,

I HAVE been in your places and know exactly how overwhelming it can all get especially when it hits you at one time and all you have to rely on is yourself. It's achingly lonely and feels dark and cold. The stress goes up, the anxiety increases, and the withdraw tends to get deep. I hope the three of you and anyone else who reads this who's experiencing the same pain can find some way to lighten your loads for a little while. The season will pass and the days will get sunny I assure you. You're never alone if someone thinks about you to which you'll always have me.

May your day be brighter than others and may your hearts be at peace, if only for an instant, because this moment is really all we have.

Chris

[Rohag]

Good day, Googley!

Originally Posted by Googley

I feel like my brain is coming out of my ears. It can't deal with any more education. ... I can't stop my brain from trying to escape.

Interesting. You did not say, "I can't deal with any more education," you said, "It [your brain] can't deal with any more education." I infer you remain committed to your education despite feelings of being overwhelmed, of anxiety and loneliness.

Googley, do you have anything in your bag of coping tricks that might allow you to compartmentalize or firewall those feelings that most interfere with your classes?

Wishing you success, but most of all serenity and fulfillment.

[googley]

Thank you all for your support. I had a really stressful day yesterday and everything was just overwhelming. I'm feeling a little better today as I only had one class. Sometimes everything just adds up to an overwhelming amount. I think that something said in class was especially triggering, but I didn't realize that it was getting to me so much. Then that on top of everything else was too much. I know that I can always come here and get support and that helps soooo much. I can vent when I need to and know that you guys are there to support me. (especially when T isn't till the end of the week).
Thank you all and hugs to you.

[BarbiGirl]

I'm glad today went better for you Googley I've found that just talking/typing and venting seems to help my stress levels. I can relate to the stress of school and money. I've found that when I feel stuck and I think change is impossible, I ask myself, "If I didn't believe it was impossible, what could I do?" What's worse than straight up stress is not knowing what to do about it. Ask yourself this, don't filter or judge the answers.
For extra support and comfort, I like to watch this video. Maybe it can comfort you

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((googley))))

I hear you my friend and I know what you are talking about. My brain is working on overload. I cannot think or concentrate. School work feels like a chore. What I once enjoyed is all I can do to get things done and turned in.

I feel like my brain is fried and thoughts to stay on the paper I have to write just does not happen. I had to step back for myself. Drop to one class this semester just so I could keep going. My on-line class is still going. It still has three more weeks before I finish it. I did not realize how hard an on-line class was. My other class started lastnight. My classes are at night and are eight to ten weeks long. It makes the weeks seem like double time.

I know the feelings of loneliness. I fight it all the time. And I have a very special and best friend, but right now, I feel so lonely so I can connect with you. The holidays are hard. I used to be alone on the holidays. They were anything but fun. I do understand those feelings.

You have us here. We will be here off and on during the holidays and you can connect with us here. Hold on and keep reaching. We are here for you. You do make sense. I have to tell my children I will not be coming home for the holiday. I am feeling very overwhelmed and really afraid.

They do not understand and they will not even listen. So knowing that the holidays are coming is not easy. And sometimes even though there may be people around, that utter feeling of loneliness infiltrates and locks you in. Keeping things within so not to let anyone around know how you feel. Putting on a face or mask of sorts so no one picks up on what you are carrying.

I do understand and I am sorry you are feeling this way. You are anything but alone. We care and are here listening and supporting you. We will be here for you when it feels all else is gone. Know our thoughts are always with you. Keep writng and posting. Let us walk with you and take my hand.........................................................................it is always there for you to grab onto.

Sending you many gentle hugs and loving thoughts. Hang on.

dps

[Fuzzybear]

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