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I am so tired of my life right now. I have been unable to work for the past 2 1/2 months because I broke my foot. I am stuck in the house with the tv and internet, which are both starting to really bore me. I have tried tiding things up but get tired and sore so quick that it doesn't seem worth the effort. I haven't been able to meet with my T due to the holidays and the weather, we have about 9+ inches of snow on the ground. I have tried calling my T, but haven't heard back from her. My T is an intern, so I am only able to leave messages. I NEED to get some normallacy back. My sleep is screwed up, I go to bed around 3am and sleep til around 1pm or later. I have a child that needs to be cared for. I have tried going to bed early, but can't sleep. I generally only eat once a day, and that's because my mom pretty much makes me eat dinner. Last night we had pancakes and I couldn't eat the 2 small ones I had. I forget to take my meds. I don't remember the last time I took them. They don't seem to make a difference anymore, so why take them? I have an appt with my pdoc sometime this month, but don't know if I wanna go. I go for med management and I don't need more pills. I have enough scripts to get me through the next 6 months. I'm afraid of the lecture I will get for not taking my meds. There are times I feel like I need a "vacation" but don't have insurance and can't afford the "hotel" bill. I feel like I am falling farther down the dark road. The light is getting dimmer and dimmer.

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