[jennaorgana]

if there was anytime that i really wish god would answer my prayers, it would be tonight, right now, and with me.

i am at the breaking point, the precipice to something much worse than i ever have imagined. every second is one more that i regret living.

i fully intend on slightly overdosing on my seroquel for the next 5 days until i go back to chicago. and even then my plans don't go beyond sleeping and self-medicating. i want the days to all blur together into one perpetual night. i don't want to feel this anymore.

st dympnha, saint jude, pray for me please. i am scared and alone and i have no where else to go but down.

[Catherine2]

(((jennaorgana)))
be careful
hold on, we know it will get better
doesn't feel like it now, I know, I understand
the saints are doing their praying
standing with you
hold on for a while longer
Catherine

[Mike_J]

God aways hears our prayers, but doesn't always answer them in the way we would like.
And there is always a path to the light even if we don't see it, I hope that you can find it.

Be safe

[PoetKenshin]

God's listening, he sees you're struggling. just keep holding strong and know that there are people here and up in the heaven's rooting for you. please take care (((((jenna))))

[Junerain]

You are NOT alone you have us..everyone at PC who cares about you Jennaorgana..

that includes me...I care about you, deeply

[Naturefreak]

(((Jennaorgana)))
You are hurting now , but it is only temporary .
What brought you to the breaking point?

[darkpurplesecrets]

((((jenna))))

Thank you for reaching out here and for asking for support. I know you are having a really rough time and that things feel like they can get no better. But something tells me that you do have a small glimmer of hope for you reached out here and that is a start.

So many times I have felt the way you are feeling. In fact this has been a really rough time for us. Wanting to self medicate and make everything blurr into one perpetual night will keep you caught in that very place that you do not want to be in.

Time will heal those things that hold us down. So many times it is the darkest before the dawn. This is something that my very wonderful friend said to me just not too long ago. I know the darkness and the breaking point, and I know it is not easy to be there. Sometimes it hurts more than words can say. Sometimes it feels like it will never end. Sometimes it seems that if we stop everything, things will get better.

Truth is, when you come back it is still going to be there waiting. Trying to find some way to deal with it so it will stop is how you get to the other side. I know it is not easy but it is possible. I think we all have been where you are and those very thoughts have played in my mind I know. But tomorrow did come and things looked a little brighter in the day.

Jenna, sounds to me like you are pretty much down so I think the only way you have to go is up. God does hear you and he is listening. He needs you here to answer. We are all holding you up in prayers and are walking here with you. You can do this. And we are holding on with you.

Thank you for reaching out and posting. Please keep reaching and letting us know how you are doing. I am here if you need or want to talk. Just PM me. Sending gentle hugs and loving thoughts and prayers.

dps

[lynn P.]

Now is the time for patience and sometimes we need to go through the pain in order to understand ourselves and the people around us. Remember when you were feeling better and know this time will pass. This won't last long so have faith ((Jenna)).

[thine_self_untrue]

(((((((((((jennaorgana)))))))))))) Please, hold on.

[Jalita98]

when do you go to mclean?
please be safe.
after all youve been waiting for this moment for a long time (to go to mclean). keep holding on until you get to the hospital.
HUGS