I'm just not sure.

doesntmatter · 05:01 PM

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anjelmarie · Mar 12, 2010 at 04:02 PM

I'm sorry your going through this. Maybe you should call your T or 911 to keep yourself safe. I don't want to be here either. I just don't want to put my bf through having to deal with that. I think posting is helpful though. Maybe your T can get you in a more intensive program, I'm just grasping at straws, not sure what to say to help. I'll just say, I'm sorry and hope you feel better soon.

Anjelmarie

darkpurplesecrets · Mar 13, 2010 at 04:50 AM

((((doesntmatter))))

Did you know I can read delete???? I can hear that you are feeling like it does not matter but truth is it does matter just as you matter. Take a breathe and listen to your heart. Go ahead and take a chance and allow yourself to feel and to reach out. We are here for you and we are listening and do care. Sending gentle hugs.

dps

thine_self_untrue · Mar 13, 2010 at 02:30 PM

((((((doesntmatter)))))
I think it does matter. I think you matter.

Elana05 · Mar 13, 2010 at 03:32 PM

Please ask for help. Dealing with depression is impossible on your own. You matter - two hundred and fifty times over!
When I have been very down my thoughts become irrational. I can't see what or where I really am. It's common to not think straight when you are depressed. You are very, very deserving.

doesntmatter · Mar 13, 2010 at 11:32 PM

Yesterday was actually the first time I ever determined to do it. I've planned and been prepared to die for years, but yesterday I was actually going to.

Lucky for my mom, she managed to call me at the perfect timing, and told me she set up a therapist appointment on monday and asked me if I could hold on till then. I didn't tell her what I was about to do. So. Here I am. Let's hope this therapist isn't another shoddy one.

thine_self_untrue · Mar 14, 2010 at 04:40 PM

((((((doesntmatter))))))
I hope you new T works out!

1flagwriter · Mar 14, 2010 at 05:41 PM

Please stay with us and don't do the unforgetable...

Elana05 · Mar 17, 2010 at 11:50 AM

Let yourself jump ahead in time,

to the day when you are free

from the pain and sorrow,

and you will look back

on the distant memory

of how you almost died,

but somehow you lived through it.

http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/incrisis.html

doesntmatter · Mar 24, 2010 at 11:05 PM

That's cute, Elana. If only it were that easy. There won't be a day when I'm free, except the day I die.

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Elana05 Magnate Member Since Jan 2010 Location: Where the mountain meets the city Posts: 2,193 14 12 hugs given	Mar 13, 2010 at 03:32 PM #5 Please ask for help. Dealing with depression is impossible on your own. You matter - two hundred and fifty times over! When I have been very down my thoughts become irrational. I can't see what or where I really am. It's common to not think straight when you are depressed. You are very, very deserving.
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Elana05 Magnate Member Since Jan 2010 Location: Where the mountain meets the city Posts: 2,193 14 12 hugs given	Mar 17, 2010 at 11:50 AM #9 Let yourself jump ahead in time, to the day when you are free from the pain and sorrow, and you will look back on the distant memory of how you almost died, but somehow you lived through it. http://suicide.com/suicidecrisiscenter/incrisis.html
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doesntmatter Member Member Since Mar 2010 Posts: 24 14	Mar 24, 2010 at 11:05 PM #10 That's cute, Elana. If only it were that easy. There won't be a day when I'm free, except the day I die.
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