[Inky]

So I'm twenty-five, and my sister is twenty-one.

I suggested we go out tonight to a little karaoke bar for a couple hours, just to get her out of the house.

Mother pitched a flying ***** fit.

When I tried to take her to a concert, we didn't have the gas money.

When I try to take her to the mall, it's more of the money I work to bring in than they can afford.

Mom asked me why I'm always talking about going to bars, when this is the first time in my life I've ever brought it up.

So now I really just want to crawl into bed and die in my sleep, because this isn't living.

I don't want to do this anymore.

I don't want to wake up.

I didn't ask to be born in the first place.

[BashfullOne]

You so need to get your own place... I'm so sorry your mother is taking your life from you and your sister. I understand about your mother - my own mother was never a mother to me. Asl I grew up all I ever heard from her was how much she hated me....wished she would have given me up for adoption when she had the chance, and wished I would have died when I was 3 days old with pnuemonia. Then when she was in her late 50's she wanted to me my mother...guess what, too damn late. I had no feeling for her at all. The only parent I had was my step father - he taught us values, the need for hard work, and that God is always forgiving if you really are sorry for your bad deeds. I never knew my real father as my mother kept him from my life.

You need to get your own place and if you can take your sister with you. She would be a good babysitter? I wish you the best - I wish I could help you... I really do. Your mother sounds like she needs put in her place very badly. I will keep you as always in my prayers.

Hang in there, things have to get better soon. Have you ever thought about writing short stories and submitting them to magazines or think of a column for a newspapter... Or a story for a newspaper that you send to them in parts.... You have a wonder knack for writing! You would do a series of articles about women in the service - people want to know about that - I do.... And have you gone to the VA for any benefits? There is so much out there for you, my son tells me, as he is 100% disabled from the Army Special Forces.

I hope you keep posting and keep in touch. You have really touched my heart as you remind me so much of me in my younger years. I'm always here for you, ready to listen. Know that there are many out here for really care for and about you! Please, keep up the fight... Don't give up. ((((((((((Inky)))))))))) Hugs to you

[cuterebs22]

Don't crawl up all day. Go out, take your sister. Tell your mom to give it a try, she could have fun. Also tell her that just because it is a bar does not mean you have to drink alcohol or get drunk. Go out and sing!