[callusedthoughts]

ive recently entered a downward spiral, due to being "laid off" at work. i guess i feel like im being targeted, its not like i really need the money, but she didnt know that. she didnt give me any warning at all, i went to work one day and started work like usual, and then the manager shows up and says 'oh im sorry, but i have to let you go as we have no money coming in and you arent "bouncy" like everyone else, besides its not like you can change,' and that was that. just like that she tells me to go home. okay so it really made me mad, not that i ever really let any emotion show. i guess if i was anyone else i may be worried about providing for my family as i am an only parent, but at least its just me and my daughter.
but now as im sitting here, i no longer want to stay quite, i want to scream, i want to tell someone, maybe even the whole town whats really going on in that place. so heres the thing, im gonna tell you and hope that someone can give me advise on what to do. i worked in a movie theater part time, but while there i saw a lot of things, they dont follow health codes very well, as sometimes the kids dont want to wear gloves while making food, and they dont wash dishes correctly, and one of the worst things is there are mice, the manager would tell us to just ignore it, and not to tell anyone, i took it upon myself to bring in the live traps so that i could take the mice somewhere else. also there was violence there, i had a co-worker that always hit this boy we worked with, it was always if he forgot to do something, or if he took to long, or even if she just felt like doing it.
now i got laid off because i was one of the more expensive workers, but apparently according to the manager i was her best and hardest working person, but it had to be me, i had to be the one to lay off. now i understand im a vindictive person, but this it feels so wrong to me. i still go in sometimes to help clean the place and i see things all over the place that are wrong. everything in dirty.
now i feel as if ive crash landed on some distant land, with nothing there. im hardly eating these days, and its been about a week now. i cant sleep, and instead of being my regular self, i would prefer to just sit inside and read, watch movies, and play video games. i know im worrying my daughter and boyfriend but i dont mean to. like i said before i just want to scream, but im not that kind of person... i dont show emotion very often, i get even.

[sugahorse1]

I'm so sorry to hear!

I'm in a pretty stable job, and even have a safety net, being able to work for my boyfriend should something happen and I get laid off, but I can really empathise with the downwards spiral, definitely not made any easier by your current situation. Keep your chin up - where one door closes, another opens!

[callusedthoughts]

I dont have the option of working for my boyfriend because I dont even know what he does for work... But he is always willing to help me out ever since we were little kids he helped me. I have recently had a new interview for a hospital position which would be great, so now I am just waiting for a call back. Things have seemed to take a turn for better. I just have to remember to keep a happy go lucky face on.

[FeelingHopeful]

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[NuckingFutz]

Good luck with the hospital job. Maybe this was meant for a reason. As far as payback for the other job, I am sure karma can handle it. Look at this as a blessing.

[SophiaG]

haha maybe you should report them for not being up to code.

But then you'd make enemies...hmn...is it worth the risk? :P

It's not like you're trying to cause drama, they are VIOLATING health codes which could make others sick. lol.