[owen2110]

Just feeling a little depressed today, so I thought I write on here, it helps sometimes.

I don't know wht I keep feeling like this, I have a good job, a nice house and a great family, so why do I feel like not doing anything? Why would I rather be all alone than with the people who love me?

Everyone and everything gets on my nerves when I feel like this. I don't want to go to work tomorrow, I wish I had the option of working or not.

[Rohag]

Hello, Owen2110! I'll sit with you a little.

You're right, depression doesn't care about your

• good job / unemployment
• nice house / hovel
• great family / dysfunctional partner + DNA-sharers

*** Cliché alert *** It's the nature of the Beast.

[lynn P.]

Circumstantial depression is when things are going bad resulting in temporary sadness - when things improve the mood lifts.
True medical depression can occur even though life circumstances are grand but you still feel down. I don't like to admit it, but I feel sad too. I hope tomorrow will be a brighter day.

[Rhiannonsmoon]

Hello Owen,

Depression does not discriminate...Hope you feel better soon,

Rhiannon

[owen2110]

I don't feel sad......

I feel irritable, tired, forgetful, self-concious, nervous but rarely do I feel sad.

I lack focus and motivation, socially inept , and the list goes on.

[Gently1]

Major Depression invaded my life just when all the good stuff was starting to happen. Seemed like for no reason, came back from a great holiday with friends, work was continuing (contact), cancer was treated sucessfully with surgery, and I reconnected with people that cared.

I did not feel sad and all the things you listed, no concentration, no energy, the simplist tasks are overwhelming, and fairly soon I did not feel anything- It has now been 2 years to find the working combination of Rx and T.
And just over 2 weeks ago, I finally feel like myself. You will get better!

To make a long story short,the hardest part for me was stopping to take the time to really take care of myself, to listen to myself, rest, pacing myself as if I had a chronic pain conditon and accept help from the experts.
I take comfort in reading the sucess stories, and any science such as

http://www.calgaryhealthregion.ca/pr...s.htm#schedule

all the best riding out the flatness and flare--ups of depression

[owen2110]

Gently 1 - Thanks, that gives me hope!! It has been almost exactly 2 years for me too. I keep trying different combinations of drugs and therapies, no luck yet.

Which med did you find works best for you?

[Gently1]

Hello owen2110,
Thanks for your question.

Well I hate to be to overly optimistic as I felt this well in October and I jumped into the old habit of working until I dropped.

And looking back I may have been depressed a few years before I could not cope. I always just thought I was tired....and I would try to work harder. Made sense at the time.

This time with 100mg Pristiq, 300mg of Wellbrutrin, in the morning, 2 times a day .25 clonazepam, and 75 mg Seroquel for sleep. I felt a remarkable shift in mood two weeks after two weeks going from 150 wellbrutrin to 300mg.

My pdoc is newer to me and she only changes one thing at a time, so I am in in my second month of this combination. I am still sleeping 11 hours with naps during the day as needed.

Now that my mood feels neutral my anxiety is rising, so here comes the pacing. I can not make up for the lost time.
Sometimes it takes awhile before I check PC, as too much of a good thing is still stressful at this time.

Next meeting with my pdoc, I will ask about SAD, as in the last two years the depression flared-up in Nov-Dec. I am scared of a return, as I am just getting some memory, decision making, interest in life, and myself back.

I hope you find your path to health, do not give up.

[owen2110]

Wow, I couldn't have described myself better than how you described yourself.

It's identical, right down to I am certain I had it long before I broke down 2 years ago.

Owen

[Gently1]

My family doctor suggested that it is not unusual for her patients to report the illness began eariler, in my case unrecognised, then initial denial.

[owen2110]

In a way I think I have had it all my life. I was never satisfied with anything, which I credit for getting to where I am career wise, nothing ever excited me.

Usually when I started to get unsatisfied, I would change jobs!! That seems to work for about 2 years.

August 27 will be my 5 year anniversary at my current job.....ok I am just rambling now