Good news and bad news

Hi Folks-
It has been a while. My puter has been down, but I finally got it back today. It is running better than ever. I love my PC Doctor!

Alright, that was the good news. I had counseling the other day, and it ended in me haveing a HUGE panic attack right there in his office. You see, I can't talk about, or deal with anything financial. When it comes to money, I have to have My hubby do it, or I get over whelmed. I panic when Peter doesn't have enough to rob to pay Paul, and he never does.
Well when I was in the hospital the last time, if you want to call THAT a hospital, they billed CMH instead of me. My counselor asked me about my bill during my session, and BAM! I was in a full fledged panic attack. He asked me how it got that big so fast. I knew the answer was because of the hospital, but I freaked anyway, and couldn't answer anything.
For some reason, as he was talking finances, I was hearing...
"Get out of my office, you low life scum. How dare you owe us so much money? Get out and don't come back, you loser!!!! You don't deserve to be helped!"

Now all I have to do is figure out why they billed them, and not my insurance. Why I never received a bill from the hospital. And how to do this without actually sending myself into some whirlwind of another panic attack.
Will this ever end? Will this ever get better? I wish I could just curl up in the corner, and disappear.

Money is a large stressor for me. Unfortunately, with the episodes my husband has had, I must deal with the money. I know exactly what you mean about not having enough money. Someday, all I can think about is that old joke of putting all the bills on a lazy susan, spinning it, and whichever stays on gets paid that month. This is the main aspect of "adulthood" that I just hate.

That being said, someone needs to call the hospital and get them to bill the correct people. I hate those kinds of phone calls, so usually my husband will make them for me (lucky me). Our local hospital (5 miles from our home) repeated billed our former insurance. Finally, my husband had to call and tell them to take that provider off and that we were handling ourselves, so to speak. They were really helpful about it.

If hospital bills are worrying you, do you know if you qualify for any kind of patient assitance program? Luckily we do and it has saved us thousands of dollars in medical bills. Getting the bills and seeing the money we owed was hard for me, but eventually everything fell into place. Good luck and let me know if you need anything, even just to talk.