[LittleMilly]

i just can't deal with anything anymore..
no body to talk to.. im so lonely...
im over trying to figure out "what feeling is accompanying this really big feeling" im worrying because i think ive upset someone...
even more worried because someone i thought was my friend is ignoring me.
i feel so so stupid for feeling this way...
and then things run through my head.. my head is just going around and around and around... i can't sleep..

i just want to shut off my head...
just for a bit... i just can't do this..

its so hard.. im not on meds.. i can't just go off and have my meds and everything will be okay.. it wont.. and its not!

[jilliebeanmn]

Originally Posted by LittleMilly

i just can't deal with anything anymore..
no body to talk to.. im so lonely...
im over trying to figure out "what feeling is accompanying this really big feeling" im worrying because i think ive upset someone...
even more worried because someone i thought was my friend is ignoring me.
i feel so so stupid for feeling this way...
and then things run through my head.. my head is just going around and around and around... i can't sleep..

i just want to shut off my head...
just for a bit... i just can't do this..

its so hard.. im not on meds.. i can't just go off and have my meds and everything will be okay.. it wont.. and its not!

You are right, meds won't make everything ok. But, what I have found is they GET ME THROUGH the times I want to "shut off my head". Then, when I start feeling a little better, I can see things differently. Depression distorts our vision of reality.

I hope things get better, and there are people here to talk to, and we care.

HUGS

[LittleMilly]

thats great that you have them jill... i dont.. im not on them.. so i have nothing to just..."get me through"