[shezbut]

It seems that my depression never goes (happier than) "moderate", and I can feel myself sinking back into a severe case. FU&$@

I can't explain why....Why I feel so damn blue...Pointless.

I wish that I could escape these negative thoughts, but they're with me day and night. Following me into dreams. I've been sleeping horribly for several weeks. I feel myself clamming up inside. Unwilling to put myself out there. Unwilling to work on enjoying the moment. I just want to cry. I don't want anyone, I don't want anything. I just want escape.

Shez

[jilliebeanmn]

Shez-

We are almost neighbors in MN!!!

Sorry you are feeling low. Been there, done that.

I almost hate to ask, but are you on meds? If so, maybe they need to be tweaked? I just started on a new one (in addition to what I WAS taking), and I have to admit, it's helping!!!

[shezbut]

Originally Posted by jilliebeanmn

I almost hate to ask, but are you on meds? If so, maybe they need to be tweaked? I just started on a new one (in addition to what I WAS taking), and I have to admit, it's helping!!!

Yes, I do take buspar and effexor xr. I see my psychologist tomarrow, and the psychiatrist on Thursday. Good timing w/ the psychiatrist. I haven't been this low for over one year, no changes in meds. I have no idea what's made me so low so fast, but every day becomes worse and worse.

We'll see what the doc's have to say. I can't stand this feeling inside me!

http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/15-...e-distortions/
http://psychcentral.com/lib/2009/fix...e-distortions/
http://www.psychologytoday.com/print/1752

[kebsfroggy]

Yes, I know the feeling and I'm sorry to hear you are having to go through it. This frog of little brain has two levels (low and lower). Low gets me through the day. Lower and it's "what day."

I'm glad to hear you have your appointments coming up shortly. Hopefully you will get to my "low" real soon. Don't hold in the way you are feeling now, even if the day of your appointment you are feeling better.

But I didn't need to tell you that. I hope thing change around quickly for you.

[birdiefreclz]

Hi Shez, funny(not ha ha), I was feeling the same way a few days ago... was dragging through the days with that shards of glass feeling in my stomach, desparate hopelessness, no sleep no food. Just a big snarled up ball of nastiness. Uh pretty bad. Went to my doctor because I was really starting to scare myself and she adjusted my meds. It seems to be helping - at least I feel a bit more in control. I hope you are feeling better soon.

Birdie