Scared and unproductive

I'm having a really bad night.

I was really hoping to get some emails out this evening so there would be at lleast some hope of some options this week... but I haven't been able to do anything or contact anyone.

I feel like I am deciding on my future by not doing anything and letting the worst happen on its own.

For now I am hoping to just go to bed early and get some rest... although that was my plan yesterday, and all I did was stay in bed today.

If my phone is back on tomorrow maybe I will be able to make some contact. Right now I just want to watch TV and sleep.

((((Dexter))))) can you maybe put one email out, and then come back here and tell us???

dexter, if you're still up..try one e.mail...and let us know. xoxox pat

OK I got some emails off to friends this morning, asking for help, one asking about an old doctor I had that may have email access...

I'm still scared things are slipping away... I only have a very limited time to act on the car and half of that time has past already... I don't know what else to do.

I am dying to crawl back into bed right now.

do not go back to bed. i'm up..stay up!! i'm going to run an errand. get to work on the car. i care about this and you. xoxox pat

I am sorry you are in that space dex, I care!
I feel as if I have screwed up today....... again
gggrrrrrrrr
Fuzzy

dexter im sorry ur feeling so bad...

((((((((((((((((((Hugs)))))))))))))))))))))

it will get better

I did end up back in bed... but not right away, and I wasn't in bed for too long, just about an hour or two I think. And I've been up since.

If I can make it another few hours, I can watch TV all night... not very productive but at least it is better than sleeping.

Thanks

It is always good to have a fuzzy bear in my "space"

((((fuzzybear))))

Here I have my fuzzy dog, Winston. (He's stuffed)