[doggiedo]

I'm feeling emotionless tonight. I'd say that I feel "sad" but idk if that's even the word for it. I just don't feel like doing anything, talking, eating, nothing...

In times like this, I contemplate the meaning of life, re-evaluate my friendships and the few connections that I have with people. It all just seems so pointless.

I guess I'm looking for ways to get out of this funk. Someone please give me some guidance please.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by doggiedo

I'm feeling emotionless tonight. I'd say that I feel "sad" but idk if that's even the word for it. I just don't feel like doing anything, talking, eating, nothing...

In times like this, I contemplate the meaning of life, re-evaluate my friendships and the few connections that I have with people. It all just seems so pointless.

I guess I'm looking for ways to get out of this funk. Someone please give me some guidance please.

Hello doggiedo,
Since when are in this feeling?
There are symptoms related to depression.

Have you a pdoc?

[doggiedo]

Just today it hit me. I was isolated all week at my parents house. I have a docs appt tomorrow for my increasing anxiety.

[perseverance11]

Originally Posted by doggiedo

Just today it hit me. I was isolated all week at my parents house. I have a docs appt tomorrow for my increasing anxiety.

Ok, maybe you will feel better tomorrow after a rest.
Have you an anxiety disorder?

[doggiedo]

Maybe. I didn't do much today. I'm hoping that I will at least be able to sleep. Idk tho. I was too lazy today so I'm sure I won't be tired. I have been diagnosed with severe and reoccurring depression and generalized anxiety. It's getting worse tho, which is why I made the appt.

[doggiedo]

I didn't take any of my meds last night. I give up.

[fantasea17]

I remember the days when I woke up feeling pointless, and going to bed feeling pointless, and the same in between.

I gave up painting, running, writing, reading. There just didn't seem to be a point in ANY of it anymore.

Every day I would think,"whats the point?" whenever somebody was talking about any topic (it didn't matter what) that feeling was constantly there.
I literally thought that sleeping was the only thing worth doing. I was so desperate I went out to buy sleeping pills, only to discover that they were banned in my country.

woke up late, went to bed early, and took naps in the afternoon. that was my life.

I would search the blogging gurus advice, for finding your purpose in life. non of there crap worked, because in the end, it was all about making money, and I didn't need money. I already had everything I could want to buy(except for the pills.....)

But I started to notice a habit that I was getting into, well I had been doing it for several years, but I noticed that It was really started to spike my feelings of pointlessness.
I was falling asleep with my ipod plugged in, because that was the only thing that could momentarily take my mind of the feelings of pointlessness. the music (I listened to everything, from classical orchestra, to gothic heavy metal, jazz and j/k/pop) would fill me temporarily with emotions, but as soon as I took out the headphones from my ear, I would get the most depressing thoughts ever.

so I made the decision to never listen to music again. I quit cold turkey.

I swear, I was having withdrawel symptoms. I would get cold sweats at night, and start screaming becasue of the pain of the emptiness and not getting my nightly "fix" of fake emotions.

But after a while, I started reading about the effects of music and television, and the reasearches that link it to depression, and how all these things mess with our brains. I stopped watching tv as well. no movies no shows, no reality tv.

And I swear, i started to see the worl in a new light.

I realized that I was being controlled without realizing it, invisible chains.

and my thoughts became more positive.



so, my advice:
stop listening to music, and watching tv, because it spouts of lies, which your mind believes are true, and it creates a serious battle between what is real, and what is not, and what you can attain, and what is impossible. and the world of music and tv...is about the most insane, crazy, depressing world there is.

if you don't believe me, just look at the number of suicides, and deaths, and self harm of people who are in the music and tv business.

if you decide to quite, let me know how your journey is going.
and pm me, if you want to know more about my journey of quiting music and tv and what i had to go through in order to get better.

hope this helps!