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Feb 10, 2011, 05:08 AM
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I missed another day of work , my son had a rough therapy session. I have been crying for ten hours straight. My head hurts. I don't know why I am here. I feel so broken and useless. Depression is a monster that eats you bit by bit. I really want to get better, but I'm slipping fast...I need something to hang onto
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Feb 10, 2011, 05:24 AM
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((((((((((((((((CSC)))))))))))))))
I wish I could do more fore you....wave a magic wand huh?  I think you need to do something nurturing - for you. Run a warm bath, put on some beautiful music, or even just sit and breathe. I always forget to breathe at times like this....one, two, one, two...... You are drained and exhausted, no wonder you feel beyond useless. You need to look after yourself ok? Maybe check that your son is too? Looks like you both need to do something special. Here's something to hang onto - you feel worthless right? But you've been crying 10 hours straight because you love your son. That is worth something. It's worth something very big. You have so much love - i can see it in every post of yours. It's a blessing and a curse, I know. But right now you shouldn't be analysing yourself - just letting go and turning yourself off. Finding a safe place inside and outside. And we're here for you if you need us. 
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Feb 10, 2011, 12:38 PM
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Can I just say "ditto" to EVERYTHING that Amoslass just said??
((((((((can't stop crying))))))))))
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Feb 10, 2011, 05:29 PM
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Quote:
Breathe, rest, lavish a bit of your abundant kindness on yourself. 
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My dog mastered the "fetch" command. He would communicate he wanted something, and I would fetch it.
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Feb 10, 2011, 05:56 PM
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Hun... I know I can't take the pain and sadness away but my heart feels for you and your son and I'm here to listen.
You're important... You're the one who knows your son best... You're the one he trusts... You're the one crying tears for your beloved child... The feeling of helplessness is so so heavy to carry. Do you think you'd be able to get out of the house for a walk to feel the fresh air on your face? We live only a few minutes from the river and when I've been in a really bad place I've sometimes managed to go down for a walk by the river. I've cried my tears... breathed the air into my lungs... listened to the birds... taken photos of nature to distract myself.
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Feb 10, 2011, 07:12 PM
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Talked to doctor today about residential for my son (we both see same doc so he knows both our struggles) The way he put it is that I can only keep treading water for both of us for so long before he starts to pull me under. I don't want to let him go, but I don't know how to help him. He has to want to get better. He is breaking my heart.
I spent time in residential as an adolescent...I'm told things have changed in the past 20 years but I'm still scared to death. Changed my meds too so maybe I can deal better... |
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Feb 10, 2011, 08:00 PM
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I don't even know your name
but I feel for you all the same you are a mother just like myself having to put all your own needs on the shelf you live for your family each and every day trying hard to lead your son on his rocky way with a gentle hand you seek for his heart internally you will never be apart reaching out like only you can do to see you both through my history looks a bit like yours wandering around as the tears pours loving a son and wanting it all to be ok sometimes with no more words to say one day at a time... now... no more rhyme... you are taking the steps for you as well - new meds to help you cope through this rough time YOU ARE IMPORTANT! 
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Feb 10, 2011, 10:39 PM
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My heart aches for you. Seeing your children suffer is definitely one of the worst things you can go through. It's very understandable that you've been crying so much. I hope things will get better for you and your son.
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As she draws her final breath Just beyond the door he'll find her Taking her hand he softly says For the first time you can open your eyes And see the world without your sorrow Where no one knows the pain you left behind And all the peace you could never find Is waiting there to hold and keep you Welcome to the first day of your life Just open up your eyes as I lay you down tonight Safe on the other side No more tears to cry |
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Feb 11, 2011, 12:25 AM
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Read your post the other day and was so worried about you. I know you were fearful of your son's therapy session upsetting him and needing to be home with him. Sounds like you are getting good advice from your T. Hope the new meds help too. Know we care about you and are concerned.
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Feb 13, 2011, 12:44 PM
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i was really concerned about your post and my heart breaks for you although i am not a mother. you are one of the best mothers in the world because look how much love u put into ur son!!!! u have so much 2 offer!!!! take a couple of minutes a day and just breathe. trust me, it works!!!!!! in the meantime i hope u feel better and u arent alone even though i dont know what its like to be in your shoes.
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