[Can't Stop Crying]

I'm done...there is no fight left in me. I give up. The depression can swallow me whole. Every time I go to sleep I wish I didn't have to wake up again. What's the point in fighting? I always lose.

If your mind is made up, who am I to argue? Your son might want to?

[Can't Stop Crying]

sorry - I think I'm just having a really, really, really bad day!

You are in my thoughts.

[HalfSwede]

I have been feeling like giving up a lot lately, too. I don't know, maybe if you tried to break down your feelings, it might help, but you might want to wait until you're feeling stronger. I will be thinking about you.

[Can't Stop Crying]

just when I thought it couldn't get worse....just left the doctor with my eleven year old...he hurt his foot last week at school, turns out he fractured it. I feel like the absolute worst mother in the world - I let my poor son walk around for a week on a broken foot.

[online user]

Can't stop crying, I was reading just this morning, in a "body trivia" display in the waiting room at my physical therapy place, that the human foot has more bones than any other part of the body. I think there are some 250?, but I could be remembering wrong. It's ENORMOUS! So, it would be really easy to have a broken bone in all that complex structure and not realize that it isn't just a sprain until some time has passed. Doesn't make you a bad mother--please don't think that. You did the appropriate thing and got him medical attention when you realized he needed it.

I am so sorry that you are bogged down in depression with the latest affairs troubling you. Hopefully things will get easier in the days ahead. Till then, know your PC friends are thinking of you and your son and wishing you well!

[Can't Stop Crying]

I think I need to call my T. I got caught on this slippery slope downhill and can't catch my footing. Depression makes it easy to believe the negative beliefs I try so hard to convince myself are untrue. Once the downward spiral begins, I find myself sinking lower and lower. I wish I knew how to save myself so I don't have to rely on T to get myself grounded

Hello, Can't Stop Crying. I know well the downward spiral; the free-fall to the netherworld. It was hard for me to accept I needed help; but I did.

I am glad you know yourself well enough to get help. Good luck.

[HalfSwede]

Originally Posted by Can't Stop Crying

I think I need to call my T. I got caught on this slippery slope downhill and can't catch my footing. Depression makes it easy to believe the negative beliefs I try so hard to convince myself are untrue. Once the downward spiral begins, I find myself sinking lower and lower. I wish I knew how to save myself so I don't have to rely on T to get myself grounded

I couldn't get out of the downward spiral today, either. Did you call your T?

[lavieenrose]

I'm having similar experiences. I also try to not believe the terribly negative self-critical thoughts, but it's so hard to fight constantly. My life, my clothes, my home, my diet, my days have become an outward manifestation of depression. The further one falls, the harder it is to get out of the hole. Today, lamictal was prescribed. These drugs scare me to death, but I have to try again.

I wish better days ahead for you.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Originally Posted by HalfSwede

I couldn't get out of the downward spiral today, either. Did you call your T?

I didn't call my T...I am so concerned about being the "good" client, not too needy or wasting his time. It frustrates me that all these beliefs I have about how I "should" be get in the way of asking for help. I'm writing things down to help me get myself back on track, sometimes that helps. Sometimes I am just so frustrated by who I am and the negative thoughts get so easy to believe...

[Liam Grey]

Please, keep on fighting. I know that it must be hard to do it. I know that some days are particularly difficult, even getting up from bed seems an impossible challenge.

But don't give up. I know you'll get better, I'm sure! You deserve it.

[Can't Stop Crying]

Starting on the upward swing today...hope it continues in this direction...thanks guys for all the support!

[Cyran0]

So glad to hear it! Here's hoping!

Cyran0

[ThePainNeverDies]

CSC,

I'm sorry I didn't see your post until today. I'm glad you're feeling better and I hope you continue to feel even better everyday. It's not your fault you didn't know about your Son's foot. My fiance's Mum broke her ankle the other day and didn't realise til the next day when it swelled up badly. You're a fantastic Mother. Fact.

You're a wonderful woman and you deserve the best. Lots of love, hugs and positive fuzzies

[turquoisesea]

((((CSC)))) Glad its feeling a bit better. I agree its not your fault about the son's foot. Your body can have very delayed reactions to these things - its designed to try its best to heal on its own, not rely on a doctors office for every little thing. So it's only natural that some things may be hard to see - you're not a doctor yourself after all

((((CSC)))))