[SadMom36]

Hello, I'm new here. I hit a low and need help. I am a 36 yr old single mom of 2 kids. I divorced my husband 5 years ago because of abuse, lying and cheating- but somehow it is all my fault. Or so he says. He does not pay me child support but I think he is afraid I will take him back to court.. I just dont want to do that because he will make my life HELL. I don't do drugs, drink, or take medication. I just want to be happy.why am i constantly denied that???

I lost my job this year in March and am trying to go back to school to make something more of myself. I have never been popular- I'm not really sure why. I feel like I am a nice person- quiet, shy and very introverted..so I can't figure out why I don't have any friends and no one likes me. What friends i do make, move away and never talk to me again. My other 'friends' have lots of other friends they talk to. My phone never rings and no one ever invites me to anything. I am so incredibly lonely. I don't like to look at myself in the mirror or hear my own voice. I see others on Facebook and everyone is so happy, and married to their best friend, blah blah blah blah. Why can't that be me? I'm a loser. My family doesn't talk to me and everything I do is wrong. So, I have no support system. I try reaching out to friends and they say I'm being dramatic... I'm at the end of my rope.

God hates me too. I swear things happen (like the pour spout on the paint can came off when I was pouring it this morning) just so he can get a good laugh at my expense.
I have had car problems after car problems.
WHEN does it EVER get better??????

I just want to go to sleep and not wake up

[justempty]

You know, I have the same issue with Facebook. I don't know if it's true or not, but everyone on there seems to have such a happy and perfect life. It almost gets to the point where I don't want to get on Facebook because I'm struggling so much and they all seem so happy and carefree. But I really don't think that Facebook tells the real story. I think people try to make their lives look perfect on there. I know that their lives can't all be perfect. At least I hope not, because then I really wonder why I am so different!

As far as the friend issue, not sure why some people struggle with that more than others. I think in my case, I'd rather not have a lot of friends calling me all the time. I don't really like to talk on the phone, and I prefer to do things only with people I feel comfortable with. So people probably get that vibe from me.

But anyway, we are here to listen and offer whatever encouragement we can. Come around whenever you feel like you need to talk or vent.

[lxegirl]

((sadmom))) i'm sorry...i know its hard. my moms a single mom and my dad left and doesnt do anything for us... hang in there. i'm glad you're striving for something more.