[UpNOut]

First timer.. no groups in town. My one support now is my daughter - my son is hospitalized for bipolar. Daughter says I'm as bad as I've ever been. I'm 65, been depressed since childhood.
This summer is killing us all, right?
What got me here? First guy I'd dated in 15 years dumped me, 2 wks later my sheltie died, age 8, raised him from 6 wks, cremated him, tears coming now....
So I had a manic episode, didn't know til doc sister just told me...I gave all my worldly goods to my kids and moved into a travel trailer way outside of town. Can't get cool - AC keeps blowing breaker - my asthma, fibro and depression keep gettin worse.
Last week they found big spot on my right lung, my son threatened to kill his wife and her family, and his wife took all the things I'd given to him.
After all this **** excuse the language I just got mad today...I think my RV park manager hates me, and won't give me a spot in the shade on a sewer line. I'm so tired of Excrement! I told my daughter that with the exception of her & a few others, everybody are ****ers! Last time I got this mad at the world they gave me shock treatment. I'm not going there again. Believe it or not, I tutor kids in a shelter, & I want to keep this job.

[marenita]

I'm sorry about all the crap that's happening to you. It's normal to be upset at times like this. You say there's "no groups in town?" Is there anyone else close by you could talk to besides your daughter--churches, a senior center? There are many options besides shock treatment now (don't know when was the "last time" this happened.) If you can, I'd seek medical help to see how they can help you. Good luck.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, UpNOut!

My deepest condolences on the passing of your friend.

I read your post, I read your bio, I think, "Angry is reasonable." But, in spite of it all,

Originally Posted by UpNOut

...I tutor kids in a shelter...

Respect to you!

Wow, UpNOut. Where to start (real question)? Please keep posting.