Need support right now. Its really urgent I don't want to make the "wrong" decision.

I don't want to go too much into it, let's be honest noone wants to read it. I just wanted to post because i need support right now. I'm sat in bed in darkness, on top of the covers, icy cold but I dont really care. I just keep ... Thinking again. I just need some support, I need to stop wanting to do *that* but I can't help it sometimes. I've just slipped so low I need Someone to care to stop me. I'm holding on by a thread. So please, I'm just asking for help. I want to do it, but at the same time I don't, I can't. So please anybody. I don't know what to do anymore.

What's going on that's making you feel this way? Pm me if you want...I'll listen

Thankyou! And it's just it feels like everything's going against me, I don't no if it's restarting on my Prozac which has increased the thoughts, they want to take me off of it because of it but my pdoc can't fit me in until feb 8th, and until then my mum keeps making me take it. She's thinks when I say it doesn't work I'm just making excuses. Plus there's the stress of A-levels, freaking me out. I keep having what I think are panic attacks in hectic situations, and mostly, from no trigger at all that I can think of I just feel miserable and empty and everything negative. To top it all off I have a killer headache. Brilliant!

Hey, I am so sorry you are feeling like this. I know what you mean because pretty much all I've done today is lay in bed, cry, and wish I was dead. We are here to listen, and we understand. You can PM me if you want to talk. Hope you feel better soon <3

Try your best to calm down & just breathe. Now if the thoughts are becoming too overwhelming maybe you should go to some type of urgent care...especially if the thoughts are increasing as you continue to take it. Who are you trying to please by being at A level? Is it your mom? Is it you? Are you being too hard on yourself or do you feel pressure to be "perfect"?

You are in your teens I presume........ drugs can increase the negatives thoughts and it may be hard to control (harder than "natural" depression I think for it's more unpredictable). I think you should try to call your doctor and say this is urgent if you are feel like losing it.

Definitely trying to please my parents, I have this desperate need to seem perfect to everyone and am terrified of letting people down.
It's getting definitely worse, I'm keeping myself on here to stop myself hurting myself right now. I can't tell anybody, my parents can't know they hate it when I show any signs of my depression so I have to try not to.

Yes I'm 16. Meds have been totally unstable since I started them last year. I've had countless adjustments but nothing helps. My dr's / pdoc/ T, are only reachable 9-5 mon-fri, so I can't get in touch with them. also I can't disappoint my parents so I have to deal with these times on my own. Its getting harder but I have to.

I'm sorry you feel that way & you can't go to your parents. Stay on here til the urges ease...continue to try your best to distract yourself. Continue to talk to us...we'll be here as much as we possibly can. Since you can't get to any of your real life support system, definitely reach out to one of them tomorrow...that will be what's best to do.

I will. And Thankyou for being here for me. It means a lot.

Anytime *hugs*...pm me if you still need to vent. Just want you to make it through the night ok til u can get in touch with someone who can help you more than we can.