[DownfallOfUsAll]

I haven't really been as down the last couple of months. I've just got into my first relationship and although he isn't anything like that type of guy I thought I'd end up with I like him a lot and I'm very happy with him. The only major problem is that I'm really really shy around him.. he says he doesn't mind the fact that I can barely talk to him. I'm scared he'll change his mind later on though. I hate hot being able to have an actual conversation with him.. but I guess it's early days and I just hope it will get better.

I'm just feeling so sad and confused suddenly for no real reason. This massive wave of sadness just suddenly came over me. I feel lonely and fed up. I hate being me. Life is just so tiring.

I don't know how to write down my thoughts right now. I don't even know why I'm posting on here. I've never actually been diagnosed with anything. I went to the doctors about it around march last year and I had loads of blood tests to see if anything could be causing me to be depressed but apart from the fact that I'm anaemic nothing else really came back positive.

I don't know what to do.. every time I think that maybe finally I'm beginning to get better I come crashing back down again. Maybe today is just a down day I don't know. I just feel like a zombie today. Or maybe I was never getting better.. I just managed to distract myself somehow.

Like I said I'm just really confused and tired today so this is probably not making any sense I just needed to write out my thoughts somewhere

[Elana05]

Hi DownfallOfUsAll,

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling especially down today. I know what that's like.
I am sending supportive thoughts your way.
When I first noticed I wasn't feeling well (I was feeling really down and exhausted all the time) I also went for many tests. I was tested for Lyme disease and lupus, and CFS and some other things but nothing came back positive. Then my therapist diagnosed me with depression and anxiety. (I think it runs in the family). Depression unfortunately can't be identified with a blood test. But you might go back to the doctor and tell them your symptoms again and ask if it could be depression or anxiety. Maybe a low dose of an antidepressant could help. I put off taking medication for for a very long time. But once I started taking it and it kicked in I began to have more energy and the dark feelings lifted.
Have you always been shy?
I had severe anxiety when I met my significant other. I didn't even date until I was 30... Medication and therapy helped me to move through the depression and anxiety. Although it took a while.
Hang in there. Don't forget we are here to listen.

[DownfallOfUsAll]

Originally Posted by Elana05

Hi DownfallOfUsAll,

I'm sorry to hear you are feeling especially down today. I know what that's like.
I am sending supportive thoughts your way.
When I first noticed I wasn't feeling well (I was feeling really down and exhausted all the time) I also went for many tests. I was tested for Lyme disease and lupus, and CFS and some other things but nothing came back positive. Then my therapist diagnosed me with depression and anxiety. (I think it runs in the family). Depression unfortunately can't be identified with a blood test. But you might go back to the doctor and tell them your symptoms again and ask if it could be depression or anxiety. Maybe a low dose of an antidepressant could help. I put off taking medication for for a very long time. But once I started taking it and it kicked in I began to have more energy and the dark feelings lifted.
Have you always been shy?
I had severe anxiety when I met my significant other. I didn't even date until I was 30... Medication and therapy helped me to move through the depression and anxiety. Although it took a while.
Hang in there. Don't forget we are here to listen.

I want to go back but I'm not sure I can. The last time I went to the doctors I didn't even tell him about being depressed he just could guess by my face I guess. I feel like I'm just being silly though and I'm forcing myself to be this way and there's nothing wrong with me really.

And yeah I've always been really shy. It's really getting me down not being able to talk to him. :/ Thank you

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by DownfallOfUsAll

...apart from the fact that I'm anaemic nothing else really came back positive.

Anaemia is something! Do you know what kind of anaemia they found? Did they do or suggest anything to address the problem?

[Shadow-world]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Anaemia is something! Do you know what kind of anaemia they found? Did they do or suggest anything to address the problem?

I agree with Rohag. I was quite anaemic a year ago, which was only noticed because I had to go to a pre-operative assessment. I didn't attribute my tiredness, low energy etc to this, as I didn't know about it.
There is definitely an overlap of symptoms between anaemia and depression. It's worth treating the anaemia pretty quickly, i.e. with iron supplements and see whether things improve.

However, this doesn't mean that you might not also have depression.
When I was in a terrible state and had almost zero energy in summer last year, I had another blood test and I was not anaemic at the time and then (correctly) diagnosed with a deterioration of depressive symptoms.
It can be quite tricky to figure out what it is at one moment in time you suffer from, but you become better at recognising what it is after a while.

I hope you'll feel better soon! Many hugs!

[Fuzzybear]

[ImMentallyILL]

There has to be a reason why you're sad, I used to think the same thing that I was sad for no reason. Something is bothering you but you can't figure it out, but you've mentioned about being shy around your boyfriend and being scared that he might change his mind.

I'm also shy but I learn to accept it because people who are loud and very outgoing are annoying ! You could be shy because you could be scared he won't accept something you might say. I learned to be myself and not care what others think, it takes time to be yourself around people but once your there it feels great. Also being therapy removed most of my shyness because being shy in therapy won't help you so now I can't shut up about my problems.

i don't know what I'm talking about or maybe I do lol

[DownfallOfUsAll]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Anaemia is something! Do you know what kind of anaemia they found? Did they do or suggest anything to address the problem?

I never found out because after the last blood test I had they never told me the results.. and I called them and they didn't know what happened to the results and I just never went back after that :/ I guess I should..

[DownfallOfUsAll]

Originally Posted by Shadow-world

I agree with Rohag. I was quite anaemic a year ago, which was only noticed because I had to go to a pre-operative assessment. I didn't attribute my tiredness, low energy etc to this, as I didn't know about it.
There is definitely an overlap of symptoms between anaemia and depression. It's worth treating the anaemia pretty quickly, i.e. with iron supplements and see whether things improve.

However, this doesn't mean that you might not also have depression.
When I was in a terrible state and had almost zero energy in summer last year, I had another blood test and I was not anaemic at the time and then (correctly) diagnosed with a deterioration of depressive symptoms.
It can be quite tricky to figure out what it is at one moment in time you suffer from, but you become better at recognising what it is after a while.

I hope you'll feel better soon! Many hugs!

I did actually take iron for a while after the doctor told me I had it and the only thing that improve really was my energy. I stopped falling asleep all the time but nothing else really changed at all.