[HJGS]

I've been on my own two feet since July, almost a year without relying on doctors, prescriptions, or therapy. I've been happy and healthy, I've not let anything drag me back down.

I've had my days where I wish I was still housebound, not having to deal with the raging masses with people that are insulting or rude. I still make myself go out, go to work, go grocery shopping.

The one thing that defeats me, every time, is being in a crowded place. Where there are so many people it's almost like being trapped.

I was out for dinner with the boyfriends' family, and at the South Common Keg. There were so many people, and there were people crowded around our table, I almost felt like I was choking, my heart was racing, and I was so nervous. I was fine once the area cleared out, but it was still scary.

[(JD)]

(((hugs))) Sounds like an anxiety attack. Anxiety and depression often walk hand in hand. Have you checked out the grounding techniques for such situations? TC

[Sabrina]

I experience this too. I will climb stairs to the 10th floor rather than use the elevator. People standing too close to me in queue is likely to start a panic attack. I can't even have my husband sit on one side of me and my son on the other. One is fine, but not both. I will not travel on a bus and if flying is necessary, it also comes with its share of panic.

I have this space around me that I call my bubble space. And I am not very keen on having it invaded.

As you said, it is like being trapped.

[heartspace]

HJGS, fwiw I admire your making the effort to get out, despite how uncomfortable it is for you. That takes courage, and I know how hard it can be.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((( hugs )))))) if ok