[beaglebagel]

Hi guys, I guess I'm new to this....

Three years ago, I got divorced and within three months already started a relationship with someone - which I shouldn't have done because during that period you're not supposed to make any decission, let alone starting relationship. It's just too soon.
What I thought could be a start of something new turned out to be a disaster. Long story short, he left without explanation, only saying "I couldn't be with you anymore". He didn't even have the guts to tell me in person.

This guy was really involved into every aspect of my life, even more than my ex-husband. Now, I'm feeling lost and worthless, I'm not sure if I can go on without him - been very dependent to him most of the time.

On top of that, I've reached a point where I felt a huge void in my life and whatever I do does not seem important anymore. I can't concentrate on anything, after work I just wanna go home, sit and watch TV until I feel exhausted.
My work hasn't been rewarding as well, I'm stuck in a job that I do not care for and it is affecting my financial situation. Unless really necessary, I don't go out much on weekends because I try to save up what I have left. Really scared of facing my future with so many uncertainties and it made me feel like I'm such a loser.

I'm an only child, I do have a few friends and quite close to other family members, however I'm the type of person who can't just open up and share my weaknesses/problems to anyone. Maybe I'm just afraid of people judging me too closely so I keep it all bottled up inside.
I'm not suicidal though, however I'm over-sensitive especially to anything that brings back old memories and if something doesn't go the way I want it to be, I would get really upset and sulk for days.

This is the first time I've ever wrote in a forum about something so personal, I thought if I can share it here, I can get some insight on how I should handle this. Thanks guys....

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Beaglebagel!

• two major relationship traumas
• feeling lost & worthless
• "...whatever I do does not seem important anymore. I can't concentrate on anything..."
• highly sensitive
• unrewarding work
• reluctant to open up
• feeling like a "loser"

We cannot diagnose, but I definitely see above causes and symptoms potentially indicating depression. You can take non-diagnostic screenings for depression and other illnesses on the Web. It would be best if you could see a professional, starting with a medical doctor to rule out possible illnesses that mimic depression (e.g. thyroid problems and anemia, etc.).

Again, welcome, and please keep posting!