[pandarama123456789]

I've been doing pretty okay for a while since starting my meds, but it feels like im starting from scratch all over again. I just cant stand being around people, strangers, friends, even family now. im pretty much alone again and im back in my 'everything sucks' attitude. i keep on thinking about the world and how messed up everything is. all i want to do is fix it, or at least try, but, i mean.. how can I do anything to help it when i cant even help myself? and who would even want help from me? anyways, i got off subject. it feels like i am where i was at before i started therapy, maybe not as bad as i was but pretty darn close. im not sure how it happened, maybe it because i had a rough week a while ago, probably thats what did it.
I had a job interview, i almost walked right out the moment i stepped in, but i went through with it and everything, which was a VERY big step for me. after i felt great and proud of myself for even doing it, for an hour or so anyways, then i really started thinking about it. i totally blew, i had no idea how to answer the questions and i kept stuttering and saying the wrong thing. im so stupid. so socially awkward. i have practically NO social skills. it made me start thinking about EVERYTHING. what i was going to do for my future, like, how am i supposed to get a job when i cant even be around people? it feels like im just going to be dependent on my family my whole life, i cant do anything on my own. and what happens when there gone? what will happen to me then? ill fall to pieces, THATS what.. it feels like everything is passing me by so fast and i have no way of grabbing on to it

[Leed]

Bless your heart. I know "where" you are. You said you started meds. What meds are you on == antidepressants? If so, remember that it takes about 6 weeks for them to take effect!!! So don't expect them to start working quickly! Be patient, ok? THEY WILL WORK, tho. And you WILL feel better, and more "evened out." You won't feel so scattered and anxious. Things will begin to fall into place. I promise.

I know exactly how you are feeling right now, because that's always how I feel when I'm NOT on medication. I get SO depressed and anxious & I think too much. I constantly worry & analyze everything. That's why I've been on an antidepressant for MANY years and I'll probably be on one for the rest of my life. I've been depressed since I was a child.

if you're not in therapy, it would be a good idea to try that too. Therapy helped me IMMENSELY. I got into things that had bothered me for years. There were things that I didn't even KNOW were bothering me too that I found out had a HUGE effect on me. If it hadn't been for therapy, I'd still be all messed up.

I wish you all the best. Please take good care of yourself & God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Rohag]

Hello, Pandarama123456789!

Originally Posted by pandarama123456789

I just cant stand being around people, strangers, friends, even family now. ...

i have practically NO social skills.

Has it been a long time you've been uncomfortable around people? That discomfort is an obstacle to developing social skills. Hopefully the folks treating you will work with you to reduce the discomfort.

Originally Posted by pandarama123456789

...how am i supposed to get a job when i cant even be around people?

A legitimate question. You are at least here on the forums. Working "remotely" is becoming more and more viable. This is a question worth pursuing.

[pandarama123456789]

Originally Posted by Leed

Bless your heart. I know "where" you are. You said you started meds. What meds are you on == antidepressants? If so, remember that it takes about 6 weeks for them to take effect!!! So don't expect them to start working quickly! Be patient, ok? THEY WILL WORK, tho. And you WILL feel better, and more "evened out." You won't feel so scattered and anxious. Things will begin to fall into place. I promise.

I know exactly how you are feeling right now, because that's always how I feel when I'm NOT on medication. I get SO depressed and anxious & I think too much. I constantly worry & analyze everything. That's why I've been on an antidepressant for MANY years and I'll probably be on one for the rest of my life. I've been depressed since I was a child.

if you're not in therapy, it would be a good idea to try that too. Therapy helped me IMMENSELY. I got into things that had bothered me for years. There were things that I didn't even KNOW were bothering me too that I found out had a HUGE effect on me. If it hadn't been for therapy, I'd still be all messed up.

I wish you all the best. Please take good care of yourself & God bless. Hugs, Lee

I've been on antidepressants for a month or so now, and you're very right. im not good at waiting and i got to thinking that they will NEVER work for me, but i just have to learn to be patient and not over think so much, even though it's so easy to. ive been in therapy a couple months, but i havent gotten so much into it, its been hard for me to open up and say anything very personal, but i think i should probably try a little harder at that

[pandarama123456789]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hello, Pandarama123456789!

Has it been a long time you've been uncomfortable around people? That discomfort is an obstacle to developing social skills. Hopefully the folks treating you will work with you to reduce the discomfort.

A legitimate question. You are at least here on the forums. Working "remotely" is becoming more and more viable. This is a question worth pursuing.

I've had social problems since i was about 6, and im 18, so its been like half my life now. my therapists dont really seem to be concerned about it and i wish they were. to me, it's one of my biggest obstacles i need to overcome because it's been a little difficult being isolated from everyone now. i haven't really looked in to working remotely, i probably should since i really need money to live right now -.-