why bother even writing?? yeah
i do not exist
i do not matter
im a ****ing failure
i suck
i have no reasons to BE anymore
why bother writing?

p.s.: not suicide ****, i wouldnt even have courage to do it.

[ECHOES]

It sounds more like you *want* to matter, and you *want* to see your successes.

Those are good things to want, and things you can work toward.

In the meantime, please accept a from me.

nope ive given up ages ago.. im only entitled to **** so yeah i should be dead. thanks for reply and hug.tc

[doggiedo]

It sounds like you might need some help in real time, especially if you are feeling suicidal. Do u have someone u can talk to? Sorry you are feeling so poorly.

no i have no one. ty

[lancetrot]

Really sad to here you dont have someone. But this is the place where you can open up yourself and may get some help.

[Idiot17]

Life is full of struggles. Right now i feel like killing myself but somehow some of try and pull through. So gluck.

thanks idiot17 and lancetrot.

i quit tutoring today.. i had to after the way they talked to me. so now i dunno how im gona pay therapy... i wonder when this ****ing life is gona give me a chance or just kill me already caz i cant take much **** anymore. i cant.

[ImMentallyILL]

Join the club. I'm planning to die soon but I'm wondering when is the right time to go. I have everything ready just not sure if I should do it so I know your feel.

What are the reasons that you don't have the courage to do it?

What are the reasons you're feeling this way?

Have you tried getting professional help? How long have you been feeling this way?*How old are you?

[Leed]

NO -- you DO matter!! EVERYONE was put here for a reason!!! God had an idea when He put you here -- it's up to US to find out what that reason is. It might take us a while, but we'll figure it out. But HE did have a REASON!! We're not here just to take up space!

People can be cruel. People ARE cruel. Why, I don't know. I guess they are just to make themselves look better. THEY are the sick ones.

Life is a struggle. PEOPLE cause the struggle. CIRCUMSTANCES cause the struggle. The GOVERNMENT cause the struggle. Everywhere you turn, people are struggling -- but we have to keep trying and HAVE FAITH that things will NOT always be this way because things ALWAYS CHANGE. Nothing ever stays the same.

I don't know if you believe in God or not, but He's walking WITH you right now. He did NOT CAUSE these things -- the things I listed above caused these things. Why doesn't He "fix" them?? Because He gave us this world and told us "here, this is yours -- have at it." He's not going to interfere and He never has except when He sent His Son here.

Please don't give up. I know you're young and you have a whole LIFE ahead of you. Life is a GIFT -- please don't waste it. Things will change and the change WILL be for the better. Keep trying -- and keep the faith. I'm keeping you in my prayers. God bless. Hugs, Lee

[Idiot17]

I hope by now, u have it all a bit more sorted out. But continue to have strength to go on and try to suceed in overcoming your pain and all. Gluck

Originally Posted by un_important

thanks idiot17 and lancetrot.

i quit tutoring today.. i had to after the way they talked to me. so now i dunno how im gona pay therapy... i wonder when this ****ing life is gona give me a chance or just kill me already caz i cant take much **** anymore. i cant.

So you're a tutor, that must mean you're at least well educated and motivated enough to work your way through school.

What are you studying?

Originally Posted by Idiot17

I hope by now, u have it all a bit more sorted out. But continue to have strength to go on and try to suceed in overcoming your pain and all. Gluck

hi hun. no, no idea what im gona do. my *** father keeps asking when im gona be payed so today as i have no where to go hes gona be like wtf u doing home... so ill get more **** to deal with thanks

Originally Posted by Illegal Toilet

So you're a tutor, that must mean you're at least well educated and motivated enough to work your way through school.

What are you studying?

hi. i WAS a tutor. wasnt a real job... some people decided to come together and tutor some kids from football team here... was almost for free but was still some money for me to pay therapy. i have a degree but as i posted elsewhere idont feel able to have a serious job. tc

[Dan12345]

Hi I've just read what you have wrote and the replies that were left. I just want to say I understand how you feel and I've considered it myself because I'd lost all faith, vision and belief in life. You know there is a saying time is a great healer, you have hit rock bottom and need some help and you're at the right place. Let me tell you when I hit rock bottom I had to fight and claw my way out. Look deep inside and take it by the throat and live against it not with it.

Take care and if you want to talk message me =]

Dan

hi yeah i thought u had hit the bottom while ago but guess things could get more worse....

awesome when people say ur important yet the way they treat me COMPLETELY justifies my name *bangs head on ****ing wall*

[Idiot17]

My god, ur dealin with a lot.But really most of us are. Remember that u r not unimportant- not. Im not really one to talk since all i ghink about is suicide but pls try to sort it all out. It so does not pay to drag it all around with you. Gluch with trying on dealing with it. Why dont u just try and tell uour father to deal/ teach teenagers. Gluck

[gloomyday]

same here, but sometimes i get so confused about living, i most always end up saying next time ill succeed. i dont know what to do either...do you need a hug?

yep i need to die... is not that anybody would care anyway... i cant change

[Idiot17]

Ppl. Would care

pffftttt

i just need to die can U please just ****ing kill me!!!! no point really nothing goes right, why should it