[Mogeii]

First of all this is all internal weird/scary, so if anyone has awoken to bigfoot eating their hamster to Justin Bieber soundtrack, you have my scary story beat. I have questions about mine though.

My roommates girlfriend wakes me up at 8 because maintenance was here to fix our AC. All good I woke up feeling about as good as I have for the last 2 weeks which is 80% depression free and 50% anxiety free. Lexapro seems to be hitting the right depression receptors but klonopin is the only thing keeping anxiety at bay. Anywho not important. I went back to sleep at 9, because I didn't go to bed until 3 AM and was still sleepy. I fell back asleep and woke up at 11. This is what was scary. I woke up either from a really bad dream or something, I cant remember, and I felt a level of Depression I have not felt in months. The weird part was I felt how I imagined I would feel the moment before I killed myself. THAT depressed. It was intense. It lasted for about 30 seconds and just faded away. I actually fell back asleep for another hour. I woke up again feeling fairly normal, but holy crap I'm still shaken up by that earlier awakening. The real worry is my brain tends to take a negative and just never let it go until it runs a full course of misery and pain. Im scared that later today ill be doing something and my minor depression/moderate anxiety will rare up as it usually does, but this time it will have ammo. It will tell me what I experienced this morning was a sign of what is coming. In a really freaky way I almost feel like it was my depression flexing in front of me saying "Ya your meds are helping, but I can still do THIS to you."

Just ranting about what happened, not really sure if there is any advice or suggestions to be given about this haha. I feel okay now, but I usually get 2 or 3 bad hours a day of anxiety/depression and im worried about those hours today . anyone else have a horrifying sleep/wake experience with anxiety/depression? I remember my friend had a panic attack in his sleep so intense that he woke up mid attack and started puking.

[dg1983]

Hey there, I'm sorry you had to go through that experience today. I can't really give you any extra advice on it but I can say I've had a similar experience where I've woken up crying and my dream had left me with a painful sensation in my head--I guess from the anxiety.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Mogeii

In a really freaky way I almost feel like it was my depression flexing in front of me saying "Ya your meds are helping, but I can still do THIS to you."

An excellent description! That I've felt before.