Alone and Depressed

Don't know who else to talk to.

Today is starting off in the wrong direction. I am having a very bad day and it is only noon. I have some much to do and I have only had the motivation and will to do one thing. I am never going to get this stuff done.

I hate myself and I hate having to battle this depression, specially alone. I have no friends to talk to and my family just does not understand what is going on. They probably don't even realize that I am depressed. I am such a failure.

No sweetie, you are NOT a failure!!! You have the illness of Depression and you cannot HELP it. It's NOT your fault! And of course your family doesn't 'get it'. They never do.

I've been depressed since I was a child and of course my parents didn't know it. They were too busy getting drunk. It wasn't until I as in my 20's that I finally went to a therapist and was diagnosed with severe depression. The therapist sent me to my doctor who put me on an antidepressant, and I went back to the therapist. LOL I was in therapy off and on for many years. I've been on antidepressants now for probably close to 40 years! WOW.

You need both therapy and probably an antidepressant. Call your doctor and see about getting on one. It takes about 6 weeks for the antidepressant to start working unfortunately, so be patient!!! Most of them take that long -- the one I'm on only took about 2-3 weeks to take effect. I'm on Cymbalta and I was amazed that it worked that fast! All the others took the whole 6 weeks!

Call your doc sweetie -- you don't need to suffer like this. I would advise that you get into therapy too, to get to the root of the depression. Once you find what's bothering you, and learn how to cope with it, you may not need the antidepressant anymore. I wish you the very best. Please take care & keep posting but let us know how everything turns out too. Hugs, Lee

I'm sorry that you're feeling that way. I know how this feels. Depression can be terrible. You have friends to talk to here, and even if it is in the virtual world, it is human contact nonetheless...On days like this, as hard as it is, I try to get at least one thing accomplished.