...i found depression to have layers...and in between each layer, all the way on the way to it's crushing finality (if left untreated please don't go there), there is apathy!

it's like a safety mechanism to ensure one can still get by. it's the 'don't care' depression....it's become too overwhelming and it's subsided so it seems but just been replaced with apathy.

it's like an emotional holiday from the unbearable it's almost peaceful it's seductive it's not gonna last it's now gone and the depression has sunk down yet another layer.

apathy can last for ages it's individual I know I am in one lately. It's sneaky it feels like protection almost but it's really just a coping mechanism and it's honest and it's a rational decision to cope and it's a real shock when it dissolves into the true emotional reality...

and it was such a noble way to deal with my pain but it failed and now I've fallen deeper...and the essence of oversadness is overcaring and now what do I do?

all I wanted is to not care so much about everything and now look where it's got me...

[AngelWolf3]

Wow. Very well written, and describes apathy perfectly! I can only send hugs, but I am thinking of you

thanks so much Wolfin...

thankyou