[nevergiveup8]

I have reached my limit. I can't live like this anymore. I want to die so badly. All I can do is pray. But God won't answer my prayers.

[SoupDragon]

http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=37207

If you are feeling unsafe it is important that you get urgent help. The above link has some resources, or dial 911. Keep safe - Soup

[Rohag]

Be safe, and hang on to this thought:

Originally Posted by nevergiveup8

I can't live like this anymore.

A life that brings you to the brink of suicide is both dangerous and unhappy. As best you can, seek advice and aid to transform that thought into a realistic plan and action.

[Idiot17]

well, he doesn't answer mine either, hope u can hang in there though-gluck, be safe

[regretful]

A lot of us have been there before; some worse than others. Recently I was corresponding with www.samaritans.org and found them to be very useful to correspond with.

[Miss Laura]

Hey Nevergiveup8,

How are you feeling now? I would talk to someone in real life or contact your emergency services asap if this continues!

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Idiot17

well, he doesn't answer mine either, hope u can hang in there though-gluck, be safe

Are you in therapy? Under the care of a good doctor, perhaps a psychiatrist? Attempting to improve your situation by trying different meds? Hope so, if you're suffering from depression. Sometimes God may not provide help in the way we expected....but he provides caring people out there who provide access to many possible options that may help you. Best wishes for feeling better....

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by nevergiveup8

I have reached my limit. I can't live like this anymore. I want to die so badly. All I can do is pray. But God won't answer my prayers.

Sometimes God answers prayers in ways that are not exactly what we have in mind. I hope you're in therapy and under the care of a good doctor ~psychiatrist who is able to help you by trying different meds that may help you improve your state-of-being.....in addition to praying.

[CgRgSm]

No God ever talked to me, no God ever showed anything to me. All I see is nothingness. I think about suicide all the time. I have read the whole holy bible, the whole book of mormon, even looked into Satanism and others. Its all the same. Everybody trying to give people answers that don't exist. Simple answer: WE CAN'T KNOW. That's it.

[wotchermuggle]

Just wanted to let you know that you're not alone in feeling like this. I know I find that it's hard to remember what good times (or at least better times) were like when you get so down on yourself. All I can say, is to try to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Reach out to a T/Pdoc/GP if you have one.

I wish God would answer me too, in the direct sense!

[nevergiveup8]

I want to thank all of you for your kind words and advice. After my rough night, I took the day off. I stayed home to regroup and catch up on sleep. I've tried really hard to put things into perspective, but sometimes my irrational thoughts overcome my rational mind and I just lose it. I do have a fantastic psychiatrist and a new therapist. Unfortunately, because I have only met with my new therapist twice, I don't feel one hundred percent comfortable with her just yet. I am typically a very private person, which is one of the reasons why using this site has helped me so much. The anonymity of these forums allows me to express my true feelings with others without feeling the need to hold back. I have a great support system, a family who loves me, and friends I've known for a long time. However, the majority of these people have no idea what I've been going through because I simply don't feel comfortable opening up to them about these rough times. I never considered myself a religious person, but I want to believe in a higher power, especially one that could "answer my prayers" or at least help guide me in the right direction. At this point in my life, I'm not sure if that exists or not. My fall semester starts in four and a half weeks, and my goal is to make some major improvements in my mental health before then so that I can start my year off right and continue getting the grades I am capable of achieving. Please keep me in your prayers and I will do the same. Have a good weekend everyone.

[walkingoneggshells]

God answers all prayers just sometimes not int he way we expect or desire

[qwertywpg]

thanks for posting. I understand some of what you are feeling. I hope you can dial 911 if it comes to that.

I can also share what t is like to have lost someone to suicide. What suicide does to those you love and who love you is terrible. Everyone one blames themselves for not doing more. Their memory of you and you life is barricaded in, For a very long time the only thing that they will remember is the cause of death.

I'm glad you day got better. Expect low days again and start letting those close to you know that you need their support as you battle mental health problems. A smile for a loved one can go a long way.

[Nicks_Nose]

I hit the low points too now and then. I know that my issues will not resolve themselves in a short period of time and I know that I will have up times and some very low times. I am in a very low period right now and began to make plans again but as long as I keep chatting on here....there are always people willing to lend an ear. Often, just having someone to voice the immediate thoughts to is enough to calm them.

I am a very private person also but if there is one thing I know...it is that the professionals cannot help me if I do not give them the information they need. They will not understand the depth of my depression if I tell them I am "fine."

I send you hugs and try to remember this....I had it embroidered on a jacket for myself...."We are all valued people"

Just by listening or relating to another person here...you don't know how much help you may have been to that other person.

[Sanada]

If any one wants god (the over-mind as I like to think of such concepts)..*hem* 'if you want 'god' to ans prayers , start ans your own prayers first and I am sure the rest will follow'.
Death is seriously overrated btw, nothing in life is worth taking your own life for.

[InnovateYoung21]

Originally Posted by nevergiveup8

I have reached my limit. I can't live like this anymore. I want to die so badly. All I can do is pray. But God won't answer my prayers.

All you can do is control what you can control, continue praying and having faith that your prayers will be answered. The hardest part is always remembering that no matter how low you get, how unwanted you feel, God will always love you, even though at times it may feel is nowhere to be found or nonexistent you must maintain faith, and embrace and believe the fact that your life will continue to get better. I struggle a lot with the feeling of God not being there for me as well, so I can partially relate. I hope you continue to improve and get better, feel free to swing me a message at any point in time !

[Travelinglady]

I do believe in a God who answers prayers. We do need to ask ourselves: What are we praying for? If you do check out the Bible, then you will see that even folks who are close to God (Christians, I mean) are not immune from hard times. But we know God is with us through what we are going through. (23rd Psalm: "Even though I walk through the valley of death, thou art with me....")

I do believe God often works through other people. Yes, it's possible that He will act directly, but He can work through friends, family, doctors, therapists, etc. And even through some people in PC! The key is to keep having "hope."

I am bipolar, and there have been times when I have been really down and thought about maybe I would be better if I were to leave this world. But I believe the adage that: "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem."

From my perspective, anyway, it sounds like you have a lot to live for. I will pray for you. Please remember that we care.

[Idiot17]

whimsygirl:no, im actually not in therapy or taking meds or anything. its kinda complicating.

i used to believe in god, way back, but i completely lost that. he never answered anything, it was never proven that he's around.