[alone in the world]

have this feeling in my chest that makes the world a horrible place. don't feel up to dealing with people today or having the responsibility of being a parent. Just want to check out for the day with the help of meds. Don't believe in crying but I feel the tears just building up and i am not wanting to give them a space. Spoke with my T but nothing she said made me feel better. just feeling lost and wanting to disapear. stopped taking my meds and now I am trying to make myself take them again , just not inspired to do so. going back to bed and hope tomorrow is a different day.

[Leed]

For heavens sakes don't even abruptly stop takiing your meds, or you'll have a HORRIBLE reaction, that could cause seizures and all sorts of terrible things. It's not pretty! So make sure you take your meds AS PRESCRIBED!! Please don't take too many!! You are important to your family and everyone else!

I know the feeling of wanting to escape. I tried that for years with alcohol and almost killed myself. And right now, my son is dying literally in the hospital from alcoholism. We will get the call anytime now that he is dead. I couldn't go to the hospital today because Im too crippled up from spinal problems. I was there yesterday.

Anyway -- why not take a walk? Many times when I've wanted to escape from the world, I've taken a walk and just looked at nature and the trees & birds, etc., and it made me feel SO much better! Even when I felt I didn't have the energy to put my clothes on, I did it anyway. Or just sit on the steps on the front porch. Just to get some fresh air makes a big difference.

Take a drive --- go out in the country and see wildlife -- it's wonderful out there and it smells so good!!! There's nothing better than being outside the city.

And WHY don't you believe in crying? Crying is one of the BEST THINGS FOR YOU!!! It releases a lot of pent up resentments & anger and frustrations. There is no shame in crying. I've seen the most MACHO men cry and the most stoic women cry. Who says there's something wrong with crying? It's good for you!! You feel so much better afterwards --- it's like cleansing your soul. And if you weren't supposed to do it, God would have made it so we couldn't. So go ahead and CRY.

Please take care of yourself!! I wish you all the best. Take care & God bless. And have a good CRY! hUGS,, Lee

[Judith G]

I am really encouraged by the message left the person who posted "excapism" I would like to say that your words helped me.
I am sorry about your son, mine is an addict of sorts.. still functioning,
at least. I would like to be your friend. I, too, have a condition that leaves me bedridden in pain at times.

I am not quite sure how to do the friend thing because I am new, but I would like to be your friend. I will try to friend you.

Thanks,

Judith

[Travelinglady]

If you need to escape, then I suggest getting out of the house--take your young one with you. Go to the mall or to Wal-Mart. Sit and watch people. Eat an ice cream cone or something else you enjoy. You are needed in this world. And people care about you.

[Judith G]

I understand what you say and I have felt the same way. I hope today holds a little more light peace for you.

God Bless you!

Judith

[shezbut]

(((alone in the world)))

I understand how you are feeling. I have felt very similar quite a few times myself.

The trick, for me, is to remind myself of lighter moments in time. Nature is the best escape for me! It reminds me of the good things still in this world and reinstills some hope that the world will improve. I also use a little bit of guilt to keep myself on Earth in darker times, because I don't want my girls to have difficult and resentful childhoods. That's the last thing that I've ever wanted! So, reminding myself of that fact helps me keep going too.

I hope that you find some safe relief from your misery very soon ~ best wishes to you!