[ReneeDawn]

Ok, I haven't been on in a while and I have a huge story to tell. Sorry for the long wall of text.

Over a year ago my husband and I moved to a town 500 miles away from any family and friends. While it wasn't so bad to begin with I began having a hard time.I became very homesick and was having a hard time fitting in with everyone. I kept feeling like people I worked with really hated me and wanted me gone. Even going as far as spreading rumors and just being really mean.

Three months of living here, my dog I had for 7 year had to be put to sleep. She was like my only friend besides my husband I had. He works a lot so I was home alone most of the time so it was just me and her. I really wanted to go back home after that. In fact, my husband had a job offer to go back home but then they changed their minds and didn't hire him.

Several months later I found out I was pregnant. I was actually excited about something. I thought this would actually work out. But then I had a missed miscarriage and had to get a D&C procedure. I was barely 3 months.

A week or so after that my husband got another job offer at home. Yet, the same thing happened. They ended up hiring someone else.

After all this, I went into a deep, deep depression so I started seeing a counselor. He said I was showing majors signs of depression and possible Adult ADD. I knew I've had something wrong with me but my parents never believed in that stuff so I just thought I needed to grow up.

I've always had trouble with people. I was told I'm highly introverted and the only jobs I can get are working constantly with the public and dealing with difficult people almost everyday. When people get mad, my anxiety goes up and it's hard to breathe and I don't want to deal with it. No matter how calm I stay, I get really nervous. And most people can tell I think and I believe they become even more harsh so I would let them have their way. I feel like I can't go anywhere in this town without dealing with some very, very rude people. It's like they look at me, judge me, and hate me. It feels like it's gotten even worse since all this stuff has happened.

I'm going Friday to get my medicine and hope to balance myself out. It will be for my depression and ADD but will it help my anxiety problem too? Will I need to be on another medicine for that as well?

[Miswimmy1]

Originally Posted by ReneeDawn

Ok, I haven't been on in a while and I have a huge story to tell. Sorry for the long wall of text.

Over a year ago my husband and I moved to a town 500 miles away from any family and friends. While it wasn't so bad to begin with I began having a hard time.I became very homesick and was having a hard time fitting in with everyone. I kept feeling like people I worked with really hated me and wanted me gone. Even going as far as spreading rumors and just being really mean.

Three months of living here, my dog I had for 7 year had to be put to sleep. She was like my only friend besides my husband I had. He works a lot so I was home alone most of the time so it was just me and her. I really wanted to go back home after that. In fact, my husband had a job offer to go back home but then they changed their minds and didn't hire him.

Several months later I found out I was pregnant. I was actually excited about something. I thought this would actually work out. But then I had a missed miscarriage and had to get a D&C procedure. I was barely 3 months.

A week or so after that my husband got another job offer at home. Yet, the same thing happened. They ended up hiring someone else.

After all this, I went into a deep, deep depression so I started seeing a counselor. He said I was showing majors signs of depression and possible Adult ADD. I knew I've had something wrong with me but my parents never believed in that stuff so I just thought I needed to grow up.

I've always had trouble with people. I was told I'm highly introverted and the only jobs I can get are working constantly with the public and dealing with difficult people almost everyday. When people get mad, my anxiety goes up and it's hard to breathe and I don't want to deal with it. No matter how calm I stay, I get really nervous. And most people can tell I think and I believe they become even more harsh so I would let them have their way. I feel like I can't go anywhere in this town without dealing with some very, very rude people. It's like they look at me, judge me, and hate me. It feels like it's gotten even worse since all this stuff has happened.

I'm going Friday to get my medicine and hope to balance myself out. It will be for my depression and ADD but will it help my anxiety problem too? Will I need to be on another medicine for that as well?

I'm sorry for all you hav been through I suffer from depression and ADD as well as acute anxiety. I take an antidepressant/anti anxiety med, as well as one for the ADD. talk to your doc about a combined antidepressant/antianxiety cuz it cuts down the number of pills you hav to take. Best of luck to you!

[wing]

So sorry for all you've been through. Whatever meds are ordered for you, go ahead and try. You can always change them if they don't work for you.

[ReneeDawn]

Thank you both for your responses. I will make sure I tell my doctor everything I said here to see what she can do. I hope this can help out so I can feel like I live a normal life. For once.

The only bad thing is, although I'm an adult, I cannot tell my parents. I will never hear the end of how they are just sugar pills and it's all in my head.

[Rohag]

You've been through some bad times, ReneeDawn. I'm glad you are getting help.

Originally Posted by ReneeDawn

...I cannot tell my parents.

I agree. As you know they will not be supportive, they have no need to know.