[Dontfeellikeme]

I just don't know what to do anymore. Got to go back to work next week and still in such a muddle. Feel like I'm all over the place. So scared. Just wish I could sleep and never wake up. Things will always go wrong and everyone will be plotting to make it hard. Help. There's no one to talk to and no one understands.

[Turtleboy]

I'm so sorry to hear of how lost you are feeling. I really hope things pick up for you soon, maybe just take it one step at a time. anyway you will find all kinds of support here to help you through it. I wish you well and give you any support you might need

[Dontfeellikeme]

Trying to break things down into small steps but makes it feel worse. Keep being sick. Feel wired. Nobody can help nobody is trustworthy. Honest think it would be better if I just wasn't here.

[Turtleboy]

Do you have a therapist or a pdoc that can point you in the right direction to get some new tools to help you cope?

[Dontfeellikeme]

No appointment to see anyone till end of next week. Don't want to trouble anyone. They will lose patience with me. I don't mean to wind up like this. Nothing helps. So scared

[Dontfeellikeme]

Really don't feel I've got to give what work will expect of me. The last few years have been so up and down. Can't get a handle on it.

[Turtleboy]

Maybe you should go chat to your gp then and tell them how you feel, your feelings are no trouble to anyone and if they lose patience with you it's not your fault it is their problem. you have every right to feel how you feel and we all get overwhelmed and it's nothing you ever have to be sorry for

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Dontfeellikeme

I just don't know what to do anymore. Got to go back to work next week and still in such a muddle. Feel like I'm all over the place. So scared. Just wish I could sleep and never wake up. Things will always go wrong and everyone will be plotting to make it hard. Help. There's no one to talk to and no one understands.

We're here to talk to. I know it's not the same as "in person", but we are here.....

[Dontfeellikeme]

I won't get an appt til end of next week at earliest and my GP Is on leave. Scared to see psychiatrist again as always makes things worse. These episodes are getting to frequent And mucH harder. Don't want to live like this.

[Dontfeellikeme]

Might take nocte meds early. That's if I don't throw them back up. This is not life it's torture.

[whimsygirl]

Originally Posted by Dontfeellikeme

I just don't know what to do anymore. Got to go back to work next week and still in such a muddle. Feel like I'm all over the place. So scared. Just wish I could sleep and never wake up. Things will always go wrong and everyone will be plotting to make it hard. Help. There's no one to talk to and no one understands.

So sorry about all you're going trough. Have you thought of calling Suicide Prevention? I'm not sure sometimes if people realize this, but they are not just there to listen if you're actually feeling suicidal.....anyone can call for any reason when they are feeling distressed and just need a caring person to listen. If you're sad, lonely, confused, etc. The people who answer the lines are trained counselors, and aside from listening, they can set you up with providers in your area to see in days to come. Whatever you do, though, I hope you find some comfort soon Here's their link ~phone number, just in case you might ever decide to give them a call http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

[onlytime]

I know this is really cliche, but reminding myself to take things one day at a time (or one hour or minute at a time) helps me sometimes.

Hang in there!

[Dontfeellikeme]

Thanks whimsy. Feel so alone. Can't see anyone from MH team and struggling. X

[Scotty204]

Originally Posted by Dontfeellikeme

Thanks whimsy. Feel so alone. Can't see anyone from MH team and struggling. X

I also have tough days too coping with everyday stresses and work ect... Just hang in there