So... yesterday morning my boyfriend broke up with me due to his "change of feelings". I feel empty and it sucks. The worst part is I have in a new state, living at his moms house... using her vehicle to get back and forth to work. So to further add to my confusion and hurt we have to continue to live together until we can actually do something. It kills me. He acts like nothing has changed just that I am no longer his girlfriend. This morning I wanted to wake him up with a kiss like i normally have done and half way into my action reality hit me and I rolled over and cried. He helped keep my mind stable. Suicide stopped being a forefront in my mind when we were together. I have failed at so much and I thought this was different. And my heart aches... my thoughts keep telling me to run. Its what I do best but I have no where to run to....
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