[sevenfold]

Hello everyone.
First of all, I'd like to apologize if I make any grammar mistakes, english is not my native language.

Anyway, I'm a 19 year old guy, who will be turning 20 in a couple of months and everything just seems pointless to me and I feel very alone in this world. I came here, because I'm usually not the guy to talk about my emotions to other people. But I find it hard to enjoy anything. I work out a lot, because it helps me to forget about what a miserable piece of crap I am. I used to enjoy working out, but now that seems just pointless. I have tried taking up new hobbies, but I just can't enjoy anything.
I had a serious relationship, which ended because she cheated on me and now I find it hard to trust anyone but myself. I can't concentrate on my education or anything anymore, I'm really close to dropping out of school. I just don't know what to do with my life...and I'm sick of making a happy face to everyone, because I don't want to appear weak.
I am losing friends also, because I don't want to drink at all, but every weekend they go out, and I find myself sitting at home, basically doing nothing, but feeling sorry for myself. I just don't know what to do anymore... I used to be a very confident guy, but now...I'm just a sad guy who is alone in this world who wants to stay out of everyone's way...I sure would love some advice.

Thanks for taking the time and reading my messy sob-story