I don't know what's happening.

Howdy - long time lurker, first time poster. I've been diagnosed with anxiety and depression since the '90s. I've been on a myriad of multicolored little helpers throughout the years and am currently on Zoloft - which has held me for more than 5 years. I haven't been exactly happy, but frankly I'll take feeling almost nothing at all over being paralyzed by depression. While I haven't exactly always been compliant (I hate the meds), I have learned from some pretty frightening experiences that *not* taking them is a very, very bad idea. I've been pretty damned good over the last few years at taking them like I'm supposed to....which brings me to my current problem.

Last night I started feeling uneasy. That was followed by quite a bit of sadness, and it hasn't gone away. I want to crawl in a hole where nobody can find me and just give up. (I am not suicidal, I just want to die. I have no intention of hastening the process.) Is it time for a med change? Near as I can tell, there has been no trigger. Everything is exactly the way it has been. I've run out of ideas.

I'm sorry to bother you all with this. I take a great deal of pride at being able to maintain control and not burden other people with my whining. I just don't know anyone else that understands.

-D

First of all, you are NOT a burden. We are all here to support each other. Secondly, I would keep a close eye on your symptoms and if they persist, I would make an appointment with your doctor to discuss them. Take care and keep us posted.

I know how you feel, I have been doing that and then feeling a little bit better, and then down again.
I think it *is* time for med change for me, I have been on the same meds for over 6 years, close to 7.

I do too, want to just give up.

Yeah...It just came as a surprise, that's all. I'm so used to not feeling much of anything that this horrible gnawing in the pit of my stomach is extra disconcerting. I hope it's just the season...I hate the holidays. Thank you both for the kind words.

I too, hate the holidays.
It starts earlier and earlier every year.
Like once the summer is over -- BOOM, get your cards and wrapping papers!

Ugh, can this be over already??