[stern]

I was assigned a task which I failed to complete and when my boss explained it to me I was feeling as dumb as montessori child. All rest of the day I didn't succeed to focus my attention and I didn't do anything. I just wanted to run away from that place. I was feeling like I can't do anything. It felt like my mind fell asleep. I tried to awake it but didn't succeed. I don't understand what that feeling was.... whatever it was, it scared me. If it happened again, my job could be at risk. Just a little mistake shouldn't make a person dumb like that. Any suggestion on how I can control this overwhelming feeling of disappointment? Still my mind isn't able to think properly and I don't know what to do. Suggestions will be greatly appreciated.

[pegasus]

I think anxiety can make us feel dumb and depression can tell us it is true. Hugs

[shortandcute]

Originally Posted by stern

I was assigned a task which I failed to complete and when my boss explained it to me I was feeling as dumb as montessori child. All rest of the day I didn't succeed to focus my attention and I didn't do anything. I just wanted to run away from that place. I was feeling like I can't do anything. It felt like my mind fell asleep. I tried to awake it but didn't succeed. I don't understand what that feeling was.... whatever it was, it scared me. If it happened again, my job could be at risk. Just a little mistake shouldn't make a person dumb like that. Any suggestion on how I can control this overwhelming feeling of disappointment? Still my mind isn't able to think properly and I don't know what to do. Suggestions will be greatly appreciated.

I have gone thru that lots of times.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by stern

Just a little mistake shouldn't make a person dumb like that.

Yes. This is so perplexing and frustrating. X, Y or Z happens and I (you, others) experience a reaction that goes far beyond what would be reasonable for the triggering event. The reaction itself undermines our ability to respond constructively to the situation.

I have not found a way to modify my excessive reactions. At best I'm no longer surprised I have them. Sorry.

Keep searching for answers, Stern.

I don't think it's being dumb at all. It may be that it's a mild attention deficit disorder, but that can be treated. And I would say that probably a psychiatrist could recognize it immediately and medicate you properly so that you are able to concentrate just as you wish.

So many times these things are reactions from diets that need to be corrected.
If I were you, I would sit down with a psychiatrist, discuss your foods in your diet and ask about attention deficit disorder and whether he thinks you have a touch of that.

You're judging yourself too strongly, which indicates to me that you have a very strong conscience and are taking too much blame for something that may just be a chemical imbalance somewhere. Your employer will be very understanding if he is a mature person and will help you along if you are serious about wanting to correct the problem and working with meds and getting help from a specialist to get you past the hump.

Take care and good wishes ahead.

[CastlesInTheAir]

I have had plenty of days like that. Lately I have been controlling it somehow so the world does not end when stuff like happens, but every once in awhile I self destruct but the last time I self destructed I realized something at the end of the day. What I realized was holding onto that moment for the rest of the day does absolutly nothing but screw up the rest of your day, so when I have a moment of weakness all I do is make a mental note of what not to do next time or what to do and then carry on like it didnt happen. takes training your brain....

[stern]

Thank you all for your help. I don't have any therapist with whom I can discuss it. Whenever I take tention I can't eat well. Now-a-days I'm not taking proper meals. So it makes sense that it might have caused some chemical imbalance. I want to give my best at work but can't focus well. It stressed me out.

[allimsaying]

Everytime I started a new job was my most vulnerable time for this. After I get the basics down tho Im fine and get over it even though a certain amount of nervousness always remains for me at work.