[gamer91]

I keep getting this feeling that it's pointless to keep going on with my life. Like everything I'm doing is worthless. Even if I can consciously tell myself that it's not true on a sort of subconscious level I feel this way. This is especially true at work. I've only rarely lost the will to get out of bed in the morning but lately I've more and more lost the will to care about what's going on around me. It's miserable.

[TheRealFDeal]

That sounds like depression to me. The apathy is all-consuming. This is a good source of support, though. It helps me a little to come here and read others' posts and sometimes reply with support. We're all in the same boat.

[adam_k]

From my experience depression take all the joy and positive things that we experience in and we tend to ignore them and focus on all the things in our lives we don't like. That may be only my experience though. I try to remind myself that these feelings of despair won't last forever. Being with friends and loved ones help. It may not make the pain go away, but it is nice to know there is still life going on when I just want to crawl up in a ball and hide from the world. I found exercise helps as well. Maybe the body does something after you workout, but I just know I tend to feel better when I work out. There is also therapy. Back when I was really depressed and didn't want to life, I found talking to a psychologist helped me sort out all the emotions that where overwhelming to the point I couldn't cope. Some people find medications very beneficial as well. If you have a doctor you can talk to them about how you are feeling. They can prescribe medications to help with depression. I haven't had any luck with medications, but there are people in this forum that have had much success. I hope this helps.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by gamer91

Even if I can consciously tell myself that it's not true on a sort of subconscious level I feel this way. ... It's miserable.

That's familiar, very familiar.

[tellurian]

That's exactly how I've been feeling lately. I don't really see any point in getting out of bed, it's just that I feel that I should. Ack. Feel free to send me a PM me sometime if you ever feel the need to vent about it!

[RJ78]

Hey Gamer,

Those feelings sound very familiar. Keep coming back to the forums and sharing your thoughts as much as you'd like.

Hugs to you,

RJ

[grey mouse]

I feel like your twin.

[Rose76]

I think it's pretty safe to say that you are depressed. What you describe is very familiar to me.

Think about how you feel about your job, where you live, and the people (or lack thereof) in your life. Sometimes (for me anyway), a lot could be accomplished by changing one of the above. Then again, you can get to where you feel you have about as good as you're going to get on all those fronts. Then it can get awfully demoralizing.

You do say that you feel the weight of this unhappiness especially at work. You didn't type that by chance. Think it over. Do you dislike your work? Do you not feel accepted by co-workers? Are you not getting credit for your contribution on the job? Is the pay too low for you to survive on?

You've been managing to get out of bed. That says something for your resilience. But you don't want to go through your life feeling this way. The more recently this started, the easier it may be to identify what you really don't like about your life. If this sense of pointlessness has been with you for a longer while - like years - then you're problem may be even tougher. Life can seem senseless, at times. I think close, warm relationships are very tough to do without. If that's been lacking in your life, then it's a real big thing to live without.

By all means, tell a doctor and get feedback . . . maybe medication. The longer I live, the more I tend to believe that feeling really bad is not likely to be due to "a chemical imbalance of the brain." I think smart, sensitive, high functioning brains can end up the most frustrated. Most problems, IMO, have to be either lived away, or get loved away. I believe that feeling valuable and worthwhile requires that someone does value you. Even a good supervisor on a job can fulfill a lot of that need. Keep posting. We care.