[Pierro]

Hi everyone,
For a very many years I have been going through a hell of sorts. I am severly depressed for so long now I dont know whats real or imaginary. I dont sleep and the ad's are not doing much for me only making me more anxious than ever. I see dogs mostly when Im at my worst.( Dont know why dogs but there you go). I was in bed the other night and it started to rain. My husband came to bed and I told him it was raining so he couldnt lie there. Am I really out of my mind. Sorry about spelling.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Pierro

I dont sleep...

That would play havoc with anyone's reality!

Originally Posted by Pierro

...and the ad's are not doing much for me only making me more anxious than ever.

Lack of Sleep + Anxiety = Hell/Profound Discomfort

Pierro, can you see a medical professional about these problems soon? (Try not to worry about spelling or anything; just dump it out.)

[Patandorf]

Pierro,

First let me say I'm really sorry to hear this. I'm also sorry for the length of this, but it might help knowing another's story,

I can relate a lot to your story, your troubles, and reality. For many many years now I have been moderately to severely depressed, cycling back and fourth between those without much of any reprieve. My mind has broken down and it's really hard for me to distinguish reality form everything else when it gets into thinking about something other than what it needs to do. I don't often see things though; it's mostly my mind shutting down my eyes and letting my unconscious mind drive, while it freaks out and takes what it sees and goes wild on it. When I do start seeing things it's mostly of someone or something that's hard to make out and almost always goes away when I look directly at it. That is getting rather worse though.

For me, I have gone to seek help a while ago, I should say not much right now even though I'm not in a good spot to not be seeing someone, but when I went to see them and sleep was an issue, the sent me to a sleep doctor to see if there was anything physically wrong with me. They told me that some psychological effects resonate throughout the body and can some times cause a sleeping disorder. I don't know you, nor do I know what, if at all, your sleeping habits are, whether their falling asleep after some time and waking up repeatedly, or just not being able to sleep.

All I can do is recommend you go see someone about some of these things, sometimes a therapist or psychologist, can't always give what you want; I know that because the one's I'm suppose to be seeing haven't help at all in getting rid or lowering my depression. However, when it comes to sleep, AND I'm not saying that you need to go to a sleep doctor or anything super special FIRST, but a trip to the regular doctors office might be in good order. I was given seroquel to help me sleep and, even though that's not it's intended use, it worked rather well. Not just in helping me sleep, but in helping me get better by letting my mind sleep.

I must note that when I went to the sleep doctor they found moderate to severe levels of untreated sleep apnea caused by my life of being heavily overweight and even I've lost 180 some-odd pounds I still have some level of sleep apnea, it's rather low, but the CPAP I have used indicates more strongly that it's more related to my mood than my weight. AGAIN I don't know you more than what I have read in this post and I'm not saying your overweight or anything, but there are some physical ramifications related to not sleeping well and depression.

On the terms of your augmented reality, sometimes it's better to see someone who can help you figure out why you're seeing them in the first place and sometimes it just can't be helped by your mind to just go there when it needs to. It's something the mind has learned to tell itself that there is something that needs to be addressed, in my opinion.

I highly recommend going to see a therapist or psychiatrist first and mention all of your problems with her/him. And then if they think you can benefit from seeing a specialist for curtain things like a sleep doctor or something than you should at least try, I know I really didn't want to go to the sleep doctor at first, but she was really helpful beyond what someone would think. I didn't think I has sleep apnea but I do. AGAIN NOT SAYING YOU DO. Also, it wouldn't be wrong to ask for a sleep aid outside the normal ones prescribed, there usually stronger and help where others can not. JUST MAKE SURE THEY DON'T GIVE YOU SOMETHING WITHOUT EXPLAINING WHAT IT IS THERE GIVING YOU, IT COULD TURN OUT WORSE. But I would say should try at least one of the normal ones they usually prescribe first before asking for something much stronger.

Also, sometimes seeing someone just about anxiety can help a lot in all areas, I wouldn't recommend taking an anti-anxiety from them right off the bat, that can lead to further problems down the road. I would at least wait a few week and see what happens first before taking that step.

Again, I'm sorry for the length and I really hope you feel better and can get some sleep. Sleep can be a huge factor on someones mood.



I must also say, I'm not an expert on this and I don't know your full situation, I'm just recanting some stuff that has happened to me and some stuff I wish I did and some stuff that have happened to me along the way to this point thus far. Be it I'm not much if any better, but I think sharing someone else's story can put some things into perspective and maybe help you think about all the various options there are out there and what can be done about them. As well as what to ask or tell your doctor, or therapist or psychologist if you chose to go and I highly recommend you go see someone as soon as you able to. Again Sorry for the length. I hope you feel better soon.