Ok, so we had this fundraiser where you walk around for an hour to see how much you can walk. You could listen to music, and talk to your friends and have a good time. Not me. No one would go near me. I walked the entire hour alone. Even the people I knew only acknowledged I was in their presence. We came back and went to lunch and I told my friend this and they said,"awww". I thought that I didn't need their sympathy and I don't blame the others for not wanting to talk to me, cuz I'm stupid and I keep telling myself I am ugly. So I left the table after that thought and sat alone again. I spent the rest of the time thinking to myself things like,"you really are the ugliest person ever" which I am, but who cares? Anyways, I was also telling myself "you are not only ugly but fat too" "it's a good thing you didn't talk to anyone, because if you did they would walk away because it would be like there talking to no one your so worthless" Now I feel depressed. Like I always have been. God bless anyone who says something, ANYTHING to this thread.

Oops I accidentally posted this twice! Hehehehehehehehe.....sorry

[bharani1008]

Perhaps you looked so confident that no one thought you needed to talk to anyone. Were you the ONLY one walking alone? You said your friends sympathized with you ---so you have friends! That's great! Try not to make one incident a defining event in your life. If you need to improve your self esteem be around people who need you. Helping others is the best way to improve your life as well as others. There will be lots of activities in your school. Try it out. You'll be pleasantly surprised.

[Idiot17]

((((italianfire)))). You don't sound stupid at all.

[wantanewme]

Everyone is beautiful in their own way and I hope you learn to love all the things that make you beautiful on the inside and out.... We all go through periods where it is hard to connect with other people. I've been through a period where I spent a year alone wondering what was wrong with me and why I couldn't make friends. The truth is when you learn to love yourself it will be SOO much easier to make friends. God Bless you and know that if even a stranger cares about you (I do) that you must be a pretty awesome person!!

Thank you so much for this guys. You all have made my day and made me feel better about myself...even if it is only for a while. Even though I probably don't know any of you, I really want to hug all of you right now...I don't even remember the last time someone hugged me. But anyways, I just wanted to say thank you all so much.