[jean17]

I am sure that I will never get well. I am a total loser. I can't do anything. I'm terrified of people. I just want to be alone and somehow get by until I die. I'm depressed and scared and sick all the time. I just plod through the days doing "stuff" to fill in the hours until I can go back to bed, take my meds and sleep for 12 hours.

[CloudyDay99]

Hi Jean17. It sounds like you are in a lot of pain. I have depression as well and when I fall into one of my dark moods, I start to think similar things. People scare me as well. I've been going through a period where I have just become terrified of being in groups. This is a good site to vent these feelings. People here understand and will support you. Best wishes.

Cloudy

[gracez]

Hi Jean,

I don't hope for myself (strange thing about depression) but I really hope for you. I want you to be pain free, and I'd help you if I could. Can I help in any way?

I've also been suffering from depression for about a year now, almost never feeling better day in day out, so I really relate to it when you said
"I'm depressed and scared and sick all the time. I just plod through the days doing "stuff" to fill in the hours until I can go back to bed, take my meds and sleep"
- except that I don't do much and I can hardly sleep, but that is the only part of my life I look forward to.

I am sending you big hugs, and I hear you! Please let me know if you want to talk or if I can help.

xxx

Gracez

[bharani1008]

Jean17, I'm still here thinking good thoughts for you and hoping you feel better.
I see that you are doing your best to get better by having the medical backup you need. Maybe you could go to a petstore and get a couple of parakeets. They are wonderful company and really social and funny. They are inexpensive to buy and to keep.
In the meantime, just keep posting and know that we care.