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Question Jun 06, 2013 at 03:21 PM
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Is this common with anyone here?

I become depressed. Then I can't think or feel. Then I can't articulate. The words that I say are not the words that I want to say, they're just the only ones I can force out.

I always feel completely misunderstood and isolated because my ability to use language and communicate breaks down.

I'd rather say nothing because I never feel I could say anything that will allow me to express myself.

I feel so alone because of this.
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 08:24 PM
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Yes, Ive experienced this. Im not certain its a symptom of depression or something else. Have you been to a doctor for a diagnosis? What you're experiencing is very hard to deal with. You might even feel you werent clear in your post but you were. I strongly suggest you find help with this. I struggled with it for 2 or 3 decades. Things can improve but you need knowledgeable help that I had difficulty finding/accepting. Help is available. I'll be praying for you. Keep reading and posting. Reading others posts has helped me learn to articulate my own feelings, so we are all helping each other here in some way. You too. Im glad I wasnt the only one who ever felt that way, but Im sorry you're having to deal with it too. I think it happens when the floor falls out beneath us because of multiple emotional upheavals.
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 09:28 PM
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Yes, Ive experienced this. Im not certain its a symptom of depression or something else.

Have you been to a doctor for a diagnosis? What you're experiencing is very hard to deal with. You might even feel you werent clear in your post but you were. I strongly suggest you find help with this.

I struggled with it for 2 or 3 decades. Things can improve but you need knowledgeable help that I had difficulty finding/accepting. Help is available. I'll be praying for you.

Keep reading and posting. Reading others posts has helped me learn to articulate my own feelings, so we are all helping each other here in some way. You too. Im glad I wasnt the only one who ever felt that way, but Im sorry you're having to deal with it too. I think it happens when the floor falls out beneath us because of multiple emotional upheavals.
I believe it's related to the cognitive fuzzing that the depression causes. I also have depersonalization (mild dissociation) which can also "fog" things up. There's an emptiness of feeling and thought combined with a disturbed sense of identity that makes communicating hard for me in certain states of mind.

When I did write that post I didn't think it was very lucid, but rereading it with a better mood/attitude I can see I expressed myself well enough and I feel satisfaction from that and also a comfort.

Thanks for your thoughts and prayers.
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 10:14 PM
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I had anxiety with it too. Caused my mind to freeze and instead of thinking about perspectives related to the conversation, my mind went racing after itself to try and catch up to the conversation I suddenly realized I'd lost complete track of and I knew there was no way I could form any kind of intelligible response. Heart racing, rise in blood pressure, and always, the inevitable feelings of utter stupidity and failure. Pretty bothersome experience. It sounds like you have seen a doc?
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 10:23 PM
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I had anxiety with it too. Caused my mind to freeze and instead of thinking about perspectives related to the conversation, my mind went racing after itself to try and catch up to the conversation I suddenly realized I'd lost complete track of and I knew there was no way I could form any kind of intelligible response. Heart racing, rise in blood pressure, and always, the inevitable feelings of utter stupidity and failure. Pretty bothersome experience. It sounds like you have seen a doc?
I see a therapist. I'm an ex-patient of psychiatry.
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 10:31 PM
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PC has helped me a lot with reading and posting. I hope you stick around!
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 11:01 PM
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I'm sure reading, interacting and emotional expression will help with this. Alcohol seems to help temporarily. Getting drunk often isn't what I'll do, though. Occasions and maybe the weekends sounds alright to me.
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 11:10 PM
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All the usual alcohol precautions apply, of course . I used alcohol to cope, probably wasnt the wisest choice Ive ever made. I was talking about that earlier with a friend. I never felt like an addict, I could quit and not miss it. I also made a lot of bad choices when I drank. I drink now, for occasions. I havent been arrested in quite some time. I hope being arrested isnt your experience.
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Default Jun 06, 2013 at 11:22 PM
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I'm only 22. I got enough of drinking when I turned 21. I didn't like blacking out and some other things. Alcohol is not a drug I'd like to abuse if I were to.

At the moment though, I am drunk, and it feels fine.
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Default Jun 07, 2013 at 07:34 AM
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Not sure you wanted to make this a thread about drinking. Ive known some people who drink from sunrise to sunset, and they can build a deck on your house straight as an arrow. Theres those people who play pool after drinking all night. They cant walk a straight line but they never miss a shot. Never understood that. Half the time I miss when Im sober. Other people Ive known worked in a metal fabricating shop, free tap beer all day, they never injure themselves or miss a weld. The other day I was in an upscale office. They had a full bar in the lobby. It appeared employees were allowed to take cocktail breaks at work.

I think its all in our physiology, genetic makeup, the ability to learn to pace oneself, and knowing limits, in a healthy way. Im not encouraging irresponsibility. These are just my observations.

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Default Jun 08, 2013 at 01:19 PM
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I feel like that most often, i can't communicate. As for the alcohol, it's good for coping......
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Default Jun 08, 2013 at 04:41 PM
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When at my worst I also find it extremely difficult to speak at all. When I do manage to force out something it is with a very quiet voice and I get tongue tied. I think part of my problem at these times is feeling cut off from other people, to the extent that I sometimes feel invisible.
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Default Jun 08, 2013 at 09:11 PM
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I can totally relate. I struggle daily with balancing depression, anxiety and trying to act ok and be social. So when people around me are talkative and happy, I don't want them to ask questions on why I'm so sad and quiet, I just have to go with. But yes, it is hard to speak, act and get motivated.

I think the word is INTROVERT. Some people are just naturally quiet, shy and like to not interact with people. Depression acts in the same way, you loose interest in almost everything, and you do feel alone. But you are not alone, it is merely just symptoms of depression that every suffers from.

Hang in there things will get better, and you find your voice again.
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