[missxsara]

last night on the way home from my boyfriends house i started feeling really weird. everything got really bright on the freeway and for a second i didnt kno what my mom was doing in the car and where we were going and i felt like all the cars were out to get me. i started t cry alittle bit. thenwhen we got to my house i started seeing this man with cuts all over his face and he kept making weird faces at me right up against the window. and the little girl was there again. and i started screaming and crying really hard and for awhile i didnt know that i was at my house. my mom got out of the car to get my step mom but i locked her out of the car and i went in the back seat and started hyperventalating and i wouldnt calm down. i started seeing shadows around the lawn and i was afraid they were gonna get me if i got out of the car. i guess my mom someone got in the car but i remember i didnt want her touching me or anything because i was so scared i kept thinking it was the weird man touching me. my mom said it took her 45 minutes to get me out of the car last night. she helped me calm down but i almsot had to go to the emergency because it was so bad. i think im crazy becuase i dont think other people see things like i do. we might have a doctors appointment for tomorrow but were waiting on cancelations becuase everyones so busy. then all day today ive been feeling exhausted and if i sleep i get up and i want to sleep more. my head just feels overwhelmed and i dont know what to do.
im just so stressed out, depresed and anxious all at the same time.

[Rhapsody]

I am SORRY that you are having to go through this and yet I can see it as a blessing as well (having been there myself) - for I personally feel that your subconscious is telling you that it is time to HEAL....... do YOU have a T that you are seeing and are you on any medicine?


LoVe,
Rhapsody - ((( hugs )))

[missxsara]

i went to a therapist yesterday with my mom and she said it may be phycosis. i cant really remember the other things she said it could be because i was zoning out about the whole situation yesterday. im not on any medication becuase this just started happening to me the other day. i havent been able to go to school all week because of it. and im scared for when i go back to school becuase i kno my friends and classmates are gonna be wondering why i havent been there for a week and i dont want all that attention on me when i walk into all my classes. i hate being the center of attention. plus i dont know what id say to them if they ask. ahhhh i hate this.

[Bethsway]

If you don't want the kids to know...just tell them you had the flu or something...but please keep going to the therapist until it is pinned down for sure...Don't feel bad this has happened to many people...your therapist will steer you in the right direction for treatment!