[Darkcanvass]

I've been experiencing what I think is depression for over two months. Although mild it does come with some real tough mental days.

I find I have many anxiety symptoms and many depression symptoms but the depressions symptoms seem to come after anxiousness. I don't find myself suicidal and don't feel negative self worth but I do feel emotionally detached from my positive emotions. I feel greatly connected to my negative thoughts and feelings. They cause such a deep ache in the stomach chest area when a negative thought comes in. There are times when I don't catch my ruminating on time negative thoughts come in don't even give me time to disregard them I feel them instantly and they bring me down. The bad days are my battles back from a lost controlled ruminating.

Sorry i repeat myself just want a end with my symptoms. I get this doppy feeling in my body mind gets cloudy foggy and I feel this ache in the pit of my stomach every time a feel a negative thought. Heart will race sometimes I don't seem to get shortness of breath as usually associated with anxiety right.

On my bad days I also have these thoughts that try to convince me its my digestive track causing it not absorbing nutrients properly. But I have a history of this in family and also suffered from major depression in 2003.

I've been reading lately about something called "Anhedonia" and I never heard of it before. I actually just heard about it last night and read up on it. I don't know a whole lot about it, but it does describe a lot of what I'm going through. I slip in and out of feeling emotionally connected and emotionally disconnected to things. When I observe it and judge it and try t analyze these feelings it just escalates the feeling and brings me more down.

Thanks and appreciate whoever gets through this long post.

[Rohag]

Hello & Welcome, Darkcanvass. Make yourself at home!

Your symptoms are potentially indicative of depression/anxiety, and they may also point to some other illnesses. Are you able to see a medical doctor? How similar are your current symptoms to those you had ten years ago when you were diagnosed with depression?