[Provider]

I don't know if anyone else has the experience and advice for the state I am in at present. I can best describe it as being a soldier in the trenches in WW1 and waiting for the whistle to go over the top to face the next challenge which might be the last, only to survive and come back into the trench again to wait for the next whistle. There are also the frequent unannounced bombardments that are scarry and make you duck for cover and have anxiety until they pass. I do feel stuck after 6 months of little income and seeing everything I have built over a lifetime slowly get destroyed. I have been blessed by the "medics" in my life who frequently assist in many ways but cannot stop the battle.

Any fellow campaigners?

hi ,I don't really have any advise ,sorry but just really wanted to send you a huge hug
xxxx

[felixstratton]

Your war analogy is particularly apt. Experiencing the type of anxiety you are describing is very much like being under attack - except your own mind is the enemy. I'm constantly at war with myself and it sounds like you feel the same way. I am in the trenches with you, awaiting the next raid. Let's hope for a cease-fire.

[too SHy]

I am with you. Depression is such a battle. A soldier eventually becomes hardened, is that true or is that just a myth. I am angry with my depression. Just bring it on, I'll defeat you this time, like before.