[ToeJam]

So tired, at work and I don't have the energy to do much. In an office on my own and the thoughts are bombarding me constantly.

I have a number 'I could call' but I'm constantly querying the point... what can anyone do? And it would be my stinking luck for someone to walk in to the office while I was on the phone.

[Fuzzybear]

(((((( TJ )))))))) I so much hate those constant bombarding thoughts, it's like torture grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

wonder how much more we can take before screaming... Or....

Wishing you peace

[gayleggg]

TJ. Thank goodnes right now they have my racing thoughts under control. I'm sorry you are having such a problem with them. They are the pitts and keep thinking straight impossible. Hope they get better for you soon. Best wishes.

[Rohag]

Racing thoughts + fatigue + isolation = unpleasantness (gross understatement)

Can you get out of the office for a short while?

I'd almost be tempted to call just to find out if the service works.

[ToeJam]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Racing thoughts + fatigue + isolation = unpleasantness (gross understatement)

Can you get out of the office for a short while?

I'd almost be tempted to call just to find out if the service works.

Sadly, I'm pretty much stuck in here... I have to take calls from both suppliers and customers + be on hand to help out other staff if they have a query that they need me to answer. (been barely keeping a grip on my ability to be civil).

Part of my problem is that when I feel this way I don't want to talk to anybody... I have this issue about dealing with things myself and feeling guilty about talking to others or worrying that I'll be rebuffed and just look silly.

Partly why I gave these numbers to the wife more for her own reassurance on the occasions when I'm unresponsive and scaring her.

I really hate this... part of my brain screams for help while another part (the dominant part) is stubbornly going 'nope'.

[Clara22]

this is when I run to have a strong coffee (a real expresso one). I know! it should not work, but it does to me. Sorry, I know it is not a good idea

[odetojoy]

I'm sorry to hear of your tough day!! I know when I get in a mood I don't want to talk to anyone else either. Do you ever get so tired of being depressed that you think "ENOUGH. I am not going to think about tragic things, and I am just going to find something pleasant or funny or beautiful to think about." I do this sometimes. I think "forget about all problems, I am just going to be treating myself today." Lately I have been watching videos of waves coming up on the beach, and photos on the internet of things that I love or things that are really beautiful. I am in graduate school and under much stress, so I have been doing this often. Hope your day gets better!
Odetojoy

[ToeJam]

Originally Posted by Clara22

this is when I run to have a strong coffee (a real expresso one). I know! it should not work, but it does to me. Sorry, I know it is not a good idea

If anything I'm trying to cut down on caffeine but thanks for the suggestion anyway

Originally Posted by odetojoy

I'm sorry to hear of your tough day!! I know when I get in a mood I don't want to talk to anyone else either. Do you ever get so tired of being depressed that you think "ENOUGH. I am not going to think about tragic things, and I am just going to find something pleasant or funny or beautiful to think about." I do this sometimes. I think "forget about all problems, I am just going to be treating myself today." Lately I have been watching videos of waves coming up on the beach, and photos on the internet of things that I love or things that are really beautiful. I am in graduate school and under much stress, so I have been doing this often. Hope your day gets better!
Odetojoy

The day has turned to night here and yes things have slided back to semi normality. If that works for you that's terrific and I'm jealous Sadly, the thoughts become all encompassing and no matter how I try to distract myself they won't stop. I've had moments when I've escaped to a quiet spot and I'm literally telling myself to stfu

Pretty much why I'm having a hard time with it at the moment Been registered with the mental health team now though, so with seeing a T (eventually.. still waiting) and getting my meds sorted, hopefully things will get better. Holding onto that as a hope right now.

[Pierro]

It feels like you are all alone doesn't it , and in a way we are all in our own hell at different times. I am not very comforting am I. Ruminating about things is a disaster. Don't let your dominant side stop you from getting help.

[ToeJam]

Originally Posted by Pierro

It feels like you are all alone doesn't it , and in a way we are all in our own hell at different times. I am not very comforting am I. Ruminating about things is a disaster. Don't let your dominant side stop you from getting help.

You're right, all of us are trying make sense of our own personal hell/demons/journey... however you wish to label it... and in most respects we've only our selves to make sense of it and try to keep going.

It's been good to come on here though and speak to those who too are living it rather than just looking in from the outside. I know many of us have differences in how these things present themselves.. but it's good to pick up tips and strategies that might makes sense to us.

And yeah, I'll try regarding your last sentence... thanks

[AvoidingMe]

Although we feel isolated when these days come....when it seems nothing and no one can help....It's important to remember that we are not alone.
I'm also having the same kind of day :-( I understand and you are not alone.

I looked on line for help....anything to make me feel 1% better than I do and I found this place. One small step at a time. One small goal at a time. And remember that it's NOT your fault...it's depression.

Originally Posted by ToeJam

So tired, at work and I don't have the energy to do much. In an office on my own and the thoughts are bombarding me constantly.

I have a number 'I could call' but I'm constantly querying the point... what can anyone do? And it would be my stinking luck for someone to walk in to the office while I was on the phone.

[Fuzzybear]