[toscana]

And guess what? The earliest I can get in and see my psychiatrist is the 30th. Oh yippee. Apparently he is on vacation from the 11th through the 29th. Of course there are people covering for him but emergencies only. And I wouldn't want to see one of them anyway and have to explain things to yet another doctor.

These next 25 days are going to be so hard for me. I am the type of person that if I have to wait too long I end up cancelling the appointment at the last possible day. How the heck am I going to make it through this?

[Pierro]

Toscana, Is there anone you can talk too in between these times. If you are feeling really bad before the 30th. You can call that an emergency cant you. Even if you dont need to use them its peace of mind that if things get rough you can contact somebody.Best Wishes to you.

[toscana]

My only IRL friend just retired and moved hours away. My daughter has her own issues and shows no interest in listening to me. The only avenue I have right now is this forum. If things were to escalate to an emergency I don't know if I would have the strength to follow through and go see another doc.

My basic problem is my meds have stopped working for me. I don't want to go see another doc to be put on a med that I may have already tried but forgotten about. I have memory problems due to other health issues and just can't keep track of those things. I know it would all be in my records but still...I can't bring myself to see another doc.

I know there are always help lines I could call but I did a thesis paper on a famous one where I went to college and I don't have much faith in them. Plus if I did call how am I to know that they just won't trace my number and haul me off somewhere.

Sorry for the rant. I'll sit down now and be quiet.

[Sam2]

Waiting is hard when you feel close to a crisis. One day at work, (years ago), I was having a horrible day and got a call from my therapist at work telling me that he had to deal with another patient who was in crisis. It sent me off the deep end. I felt abandoned. I walked out on work and lost my job.

There is a web site that you can use that has a policy of never reporting anything. It doesn't matter what you say, even if you are talking about suicide. There thing is that people have the choice of whether they want to stay or die.
I think their web site is jo@samaritans.com to be sure, look up samaritans.
They have phones too. I have used the e-mail version and chose a chapter that was not in the states, because like you, I was afraid to say anything that would wind up with them calling and sending me away. I've said some pretty bad things on their site, and they have never once "turned me in". At times they can be a little annoying, because they do what therapists do as far as asking how something makes you feel, or asking if you want to explore what you just said.

If you think you in crisis, then go to the ER if you can. If you can't bring yourself to do it, you can use the samaritans to blow off steam without danger of being incarcerated.

Sam2

[813i]

I emailed the samaritans when I was in crisis and they never responded. I was literally sitting in front of the computer refreshing my email obsessively for 20 minutes.

So yeah, this forum really is a lifesaver when there's no one available to talk to. It sucks to have to wait.

[toscana]

Originally Posted by Sam2

If you think you in crisis, then go to the ER if you can. If you can't bring yourself to do it, you can use the samaritans to blow off steam without danger of being incarcerated.

Sam2

This is what I am afraid of. If I were to be locked up in a jail I would lose my job...no ifs, ands or butts. (hehe...I said butts sorry couldn't resist). I tried the ER once when I was having a really hard time with my meds on a weekend and couldn't get in touch with my doc and it was a disaster. I asked if I could be seen by a psychiatrist and they sent down an intake counselor. He was no help at all.

I have the national suicide hotline bookmarked at work on my computer but I have never tried the Samaritans. I will take a look.

And thanks to everyone else. It does help to vent here and know that there are so many people who have BTDT.

[steelfang]

Can you schedule an appointment with your general practitioner? They are certified to prescribe antidepressants.

[NWgirl2013]

I finally made an appointment today too only to find that I won't be seen until Jan 3. Sheesh. I may curl up in a ball/bawling mess in the meantime. Now I have all this time to fret about meeting with a new Dr.

Have you tried writing to yourself or at least making notes/journaling while you wait? It is what I do when I don't want to hold onto a lot of stuff. I can put in on paper/or in the computer/ and it is safe there without me having to hang onto it or try to remember everything...

I hope the time passes quickly for you.

[Fuzzybear]

[sincemyfirstmemory]

Originally Posted by toscana

And guess what? The earliest I can get in and see my psychiatrist is the 30th. Oh yippee. Apparently he is on vacation from the 11th through the 29th. Of course there are people covering for him but emergencies only. And I wouldn't want to see one of them anyway and have to explain things to yet another doctor.

These next 25 days are going to be so hard for me. I am the type of person that if I have to wait too long I end up cancelling the appointment at the last possible day. How the heck am I going to make it through this?

Hi. I am with you on this. I have been looking for a counselor that takes both of my insurances for the last six months. I finally found a very good practice and I have to wait 6 weeks to get in. However, I know how important this is so I am waiting. Do you have a counselor as well? I never really felt good in a psychiatrist office. They are always in a hurry. They want to change my meds and see me back in 6 weeks. Allot can happen in 6 weeks. I have a PCP prescribe my meds. He is more caring, patient and has time for me. I can see him in allot less time than a psychiatrist. The counselor that I am going to see also has a 3 psychiatrist in their office. Just some suggestions. I know that suggestions alone and searching for new practitioners can be overwhelming and trigger problems. So take it slow.