[yes74]

Hello everybody. I'm joining this forum because I'm in a crisis and I need to talk about it. Im in my late 30's and I suffer from bad depression and anxiety. I recently lost my job because of it. I take xanax and was pulled over for weaving a couple of weeks ago and was charged with dui. I wasnt drinking and I didnt know that I was breaking the law. I went through a few days of bad suicidal thoughts, I didnt leave my bed for 3 days but now Ive been able to get up and out again. Im still very depressed and anxious. Its tough to find a job right now and Im starting to worry about it. Im also still ruminating every day about my bad experience with my last one. I have headaches , body aches and heart palpitations. I want to get off of the meds because they dont work well enough. They do alleviate the anxiety but seem to be making my problems worse. I also feel totally alone. So thats my story I guess.