[Daeva]

I was in the kitchen when overwhelming feelings crippled me. I went to my room. I have no memory of getting there in this mansion. the last thing I remember was walking into the dining room. and then I was like semi-conscious when I got to my room. I laid on the floor for an hour, repetitively and non-stop banging my head on the floor and saying, "I'm not." I'm still a bit fuzzy, like cotton in my head.

[Pikku Myy]

hmnnnn... can relate unfourtunately

[Sadley]

Me too, unfortunately. I forget a lot of things. My memory is terrible. Short-term memory, anyways. I still remember everything since age 3. But I can't remember the names of the people I spent so long with in the hospital.

I will admit I spent some time lying on the floor this weekend. I often lose myself.

[Fuzzybear]

[worthit]

Well,it's pretty bad: I totally blacked out while driving in reverse into a parking spot. My mind totally stopped thinking but my foot stayed pressing the gas pedal. The thing that snapped me back was hitting the back wall and jerking the car. Frightening. I think it's going to happen any minute while I'm on the road.

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[Webgoji]

When I "black out" I evidently function like most people although completely out of my personality. My understanding is that I become a complete jerk and I never remember what happened.

Depersonalization/disassociation for me takes the form of feeling like I'm inside my body as a passenger and someone else is driving the car. It's pretty much constant and just depends on how strong my depression is as to how bad the depersonalization/disassociation is.

[Tydi469]

It seems that no matter what I read I can relate in some way. The question I have isn't what is my illness but what isn't.... Hope that made sense.

Much love, Diane